Kenz-

Okay people. I'm switching to a new blog. The new address is http://kenzyxvw.blogdrive.com/ .
This blog shall rest in peace as of today. Ciao.

Kenz-

I've always wanted to do this post since way way back then, when I thought I knew its meaning. But I guess there's still a lot to learn, but yeah, I'll share a thought or two on it, as what I have come to know and observe in life.

Yeah, so if you have about 15-20 minutes to kill then you can go on reading, if not I suggest scrolling your mouse to the top right hand corner and click that red 'X' button there. :)

So yeah, how do you define love? An act of compassion? A passionate feeling you have for someone? Or that little tingly feeling you have inside you when you see that certain someone? Or the feeling of getting somebody to like you or liking somebody? Or maybe that force of attraction you have towards that someone because of him/her?

I believe it's up to everyone as to how they would want to interpret love. But yeah, my interpretation is that love is...

Okay, only the girlfriend gets to read that, heh. :)

Anyways, I think that every relationship has its own recipe to everlasting love. Yeah, its unique and special, that's why every relationship is different I guess. Sometimes you don't get it perfect, but that's where you learn from it. Sometimes you do get it right, and that's when you won't let go and you'll live on that way happily for the rest of your life. :)

I think that people are generally afraid of relationships. For love and during love, that's when you see the true colours of each person. It is that very fact that shows that person's true personality, who he/she really is. Yeah, it's funny, but it's true.

There is no limit as to where would one go for love and relationships. Everyone fears rejection, or to put it in other words, the fear of facing the fact of an unrequited (not repaid) love. Yeah, it's like the total opposite of unconditional love. Everyone doesn't like the fact of unrequited love, it's like trying to clap with one hand. No fun in that, no?

So yeah, that's when you get to see people that live their lives without getting their hopes high, or like deceiving themselves that they don't expect anything out of love. You know, the same old phrase that "No hopes, no expectations, means no disappointment and no pain". Yeah, that same excuse time and time again. These are the people that fear love, hence they usually don't get repaid with it. Even if they do, they don't usually end up sustaining it. Why? Because fearing love is something that is wrong, something which isn't supposed to exist within oneself.

I mean if you fear love so much, why even fall in love in the first place right? Dare to love, embrace love for what it is. If you suffer a fall from it, get back up. Because the reason why we fall is to learn how to pick ourselves up. :)

Then there are those which want love but totally do not want love. Sounds confusing? Yeah, these are the ones that take time to understand, but all in all, they're pretty easy to figure out. They'll live life alone not wanting to know whether the grass is greener on the other side as they perceive that it is not. Hence, they'll only take a look at it if they're given some insurance or something like that. They dare not take the step forward to embrace love neither do they take a step back to deny love.

Yeah, they may have fallen in love once or twice but then they'll go on not wanting to accept love unless they are sure it will not wind up being like the previous time(s). Yeah, they wouldn't want to start off at square one again I'm pretty sure, but who would want to? But then again, we make mistakes in life and that's where we move on I guess.

Now I'll move on to those who doesn't really want love but needs love. You know, the ones who don't really care for what love is all about but instead just needs to know what it feels like, what it tastes like to be in love. Or so they think they are "in love". But heck, it's everyone's own interpretation to what love is I guess. Yeah, so they'll be kind of needy and not hesitant at all as to find out what love is all about but only if they find people they're interested in, and not vice versa where they're not interested in that person.

Yeah, then there are the ones that just want love as to fit in or to show that they too can fall in love. This is what I call naive and well, a little mix of stupidity and blindness. Yeah, that's how I define it, sue me if you want. Anyways, they'll be like very in need of somebody to love them and they'll practically just fall for anyone they'd know who gets a little too close for comfort kind of situation with them. They'd sometimes misunderstand acts of kindness and compassion as that someone being interested in them.

Yeah, so they'd just fall for people who would fall for them and not really get the whole idea of affection I guess. But what the heck. They try to be in love, but when the idea of actually being in love for the long run, I really don't know what's gonna happen.

Then there are the really patient ones. Those who believe in love, has their hopes high, has faith in the perfect/dream girl/guy etc. Yeah, they stay faithful to love, in hope that one day their soul searching would come to an end. These are those that I guess understand the meaning of passionate affection and believe love is something real and genuine. Nothing much to add here, as I guess they do know that eventually someone will come by knocking on their door to deliver him/herself to them. :)

And then there are those that don't really know what love is, but know what love is. You know, the time where you were still living your own life without any worries and any care for anyone else and then suddenly you bump into someone and then it all begins. Haha. Yeah, these are those that want love but only I guess if it shows up at the right place at the right time. But then again, that's how everyone falls in love I guess, by chance.

So yeah, there's still about two to three more (of course I wouldn't write which am I in this post, hahaha, not that dumb okay!) that I know of but I'd stop here as this has gone long enough. I assume this applies for both guys and girls (a bit vague on the girl part though). But hey, assume-ing is never good. Yes, assume-ing not assuming. Why? Because making an assumption = Making an ASS out of U and ME. (ASS-U-ME = ASSUME!) Haha. That teaching is from Mrs. Ng by the way. :)

So go on now, go figure out love. Be daring to love, embrace love, feel love, and love love. Heh. Remember, never hate the person, hate love. :)

Kenz-

I need to exercise! Sniffles.

It's been way too long since I last played futsal. Not good okay. At least kicking footie around the house isn't too bad, but yeah I need to play futsal people! My goal tally of 147 or is it 138 goals in 21 games needs to carry on! Grr.

Man, I wonder if those people from the Monash soccer team or whatever are still playing. At least they managed to put in a bit of fight. The others, well let's just say that I'm too young for them.

Anyone up for futsal? =D

Kenz-

Sorry people, didn't really had a post in September. Anyways, I guess reviving the blog every once in a while isn't a tad bit too bad. So yeah, just a few short updates I guess?

Baby is currently in Sydney, and there's still another four days before she comes back. I'm missing her like hell now but at least I've managed to discover the art of cartoon-making. Yes. Haha.

I'm on holiday now and my finals are in a couple of weeks. This is not good. Holiday = forgetting everything that I've learnt in the whole year. Sniffles.

I've definitely flopped my entire trials, which is not good once the parents finds out. Uggh. Hmm, on a side note, at least the girlfriend did pretty good I think. So yeah, at least my hardwork in making her study did pay off after all. =D

Birthday weekend is coming up, cartoon-making is beginning to take shape, busy busy busy. Pfft.

I guess some people have troubles of letting go of the past, some still live in it. They just don't know how to move on, how to let go. No matter, they'll know soon enough that life is about what is now, not the future, not the past.

Yeah, just because they didn't really have things go for them in the past, they think they'd make their lives better by making a fool out of themselves to critique the path that they could never have had. You know, like the "Yeah la, luckily I didn't go with that bla bla bla" kind of thing.

So yeah, just because you didn't have a chance at it doesn't mean that life on the other side isn't greener than your side. It means that you just couldn't deal with the fact that you've never gotten a chance to look at life on both sides. Such losers and imbeciles, har har.

Yeah, so take a look in the mirror and ask yourself, "Who am I today?". You won't know what comes tomorrow, coz' even if you've planned everything right, all it takes is one thing to screw up the system and chaos is upon you. Watch The Dark Knight and listen to what Joker says to Harvey Dent in the hospital, totally makes sense okay.

Okay, short update just went a little too far. Haha. Oh well. Till the next time, toodles.

Ken



"If there is someone who could make me smile more, it would be you. If there is someone who could make me happier, it would be you. If there is someone who could make me forget about all my worries, it would be you. If there is someone who could catch me when I fall, it would be you. And if there's someone that I can only love, it would be you." - Pigil²

Baby and I went Fish Spa today at Kenko, Pavilion :D Hehe. The fishes really got much fatter and BIGGER since the last time I went. Damn scary!

We were screaming and biting our towels cause it was so geli and kinda painful too! Haha, we had to force each other's legs into the water cause we kept freaking out :p So jakun, I know :D Hehe. And the boyfriend is lucky to have me sitting next to him, cause all the big big fishes came to me instead of him :(

But I want to go again! :D Though I doubt baby will teman me again :p His reaction was really funny. So cutee <3 He thought he was going to die okay. Haha.

Sigh, since this blog is like dying, I shall post up some pictures of our interesting fish spa experience :p Goes to show how lazy the owner of this blog is, hehe.

Look at the difference!! Ahhhh, imagine having SO many fishes biting you :(


Look at the piggg! Lol. As if someone was going to kill him like that okay :p Ish.

Oh, and we attempted horror movie today :D The Strangers. I think I only watched three quarters of the movie. The other quarter I was hiding behind baby's hands :D Haha, SCARY okay!

I think I should stop blogging here too and let the blog decompose together with Sesame. Haha :D

Toodles :)

It definitely feels like I own this blog now since the boyfriend decided to abandon this faithful emo blog of his. So sesamisedly evil =p

Baby lost his mp3 in college on Thursday :( :( Argh, I think it must have been some M who took it, must be. Taylors should ban them la, seriously =S

Anyways, we went Mid Valley yesterday rather early in the morning. Haha, I had to wake the pig up at 8 something and as usual I had to force him to wake up despite him manja-ing with his "A while more", "5 more minutes?" and "3 minutes more, please?" <33

Watched him played CS for some WCG thingy sponsored by Nuffnang, I think? :D Sorry la, I'm not exactly very cyber-gamed yet okay, although my boyfriend is a CS and Dota pro. So as usual, I was fascinated (very jakunly) by their speed and accuracy in the game. I'm a slow person okay, don't blame me. :D

Then then then, yay! I conned him into buying some stuff :D For himself la, not me. Hehe. I'm so happy :) Had lunch at Madam Kwan's, and he paid for lunch AGAIN. Sobs :( Then we wanted to watch movie, but the queue in Mid Valley was so damn long and packed with his favourite race, the M's :D So we decided to head to Signature GSC.

We went back to his place before the movie since we had three hours. Visited the Evil Sesame, watched Olympics, and got freaked out by his naughty dog, Benji :D Haha. Signature GSC is really comfy by the way :D And The Mummy was kinda scary, too many chopping off heads scenes. Twinkles was so naughty okay, he kept covering my eyes. Hehe. Okay la, more like I didn't wanna watch the gross scenes :D :D

18.8.08

Hehe, so the boyfriend and I didn't choose a wrong day to be together <3

Nice number okay :D

Skittles is now four months old! :) Twinkles is three, and baby Starry is still two months old :)

Happy four months darling.

Much love <33

Ken

Yes, the blog is dying. Heh. The visitor count has decreased well, almost to single digits. Yays. No more updates for the month from me. Toodles people. ;D

It feels like I own this blog now. Cause the owner of this blog is a real Pig-Il-² who can't seem to stay awake every night after dinner. Haha, so yeah.

He tried conning me today, okay fine, he did con me for like 2 minutes into thinking he was kidnapped/mugged by a M.

What happened was.. when he told me he was going to walk, walk okay, walk! to Leisure Mall, I kinda freaked out. Haha, yes la, I know it's right opposite his house, but there are a lot of weird people loafing around there somehow. And plus! A lot of that race there okay!

So I messaged him to check if he was still alive, haha, as in literally.

And he replied, "Ko ni sape?"

I was.. stoned? Haha. Worried, of course, but really stoned. So many possibilities ran through my mind, the possibility that he really got kidnapped cause he really has the "I am rich, come rob me" face okay. But I thought of the possibility that he was conning me as well la, as usual :p See, I ain't that blur okay :p

So yes, my lazy Pigil² boyfriend finds joy in making me worried by acting as a M! Hmphhhh, I so don't like you :p

But you know I love you <3

I am here to un-emofy this blog, yeah, you all know how emo this blog is right? ;p Haha.

And as well as to keep this blog alive! :D Haha, yes yes, you people reading this should thank me for updating this lazy bum's blog for you all who read his blog to cure your boredom :D

We created a blog for Twinkles, Skittles, Starry, Sesame and Street! :) :) Haha, we're pretty good at giving names now, from Silly Tilly to Street to Skittles, Twinkles and Starry :)

Yes, I am the sesamised girlfriend :D

And the boyfriend is bullying me at this exact moment, hmph.

It's not funny okay!!!! :( Poke you ahhhh. Heh.

Okay okay, buhbyes! :) Yeah la, I know this post damn random. Heh, expect more random posts from me! :D I am supposed to keep this dying blog alive anyway, :D