31 !

Oh great, it's the 31st of July, last day of yet another wasted month.

Oh well, trials are coming up in a week, think I'm gonna flunk it.

But hopefully I'll score well again with the help of my good luck charm.

Sheesh, I'm so gonna get screwed once the marks and grades return. Hoho. =/

Nevermind, at least today's 31st. That means Baskin Robbins here I come. Woots. =D

A Moment's Breath, Everlasting Remembrance

When you're gone, I couldn't imagine a world without that scent of your smell, the touch of your hand, the kiss of your lips, that look you give me, the sweet and soothing voice of yours.

And to say that you have left none of those behind when you left me here in Hell's keep, is just unbearable to my thoughts and my heart.

Though the memories that we share, the secrets that we keep, the laughs that we had, the tough times that we endured, has engraved a place here in my heart, the thought of just remembering them and just looking back in the distant past deepens this wound that never seems to heal despite going through the test of time.

Alas, you leave my ship, leaving it without a captain, without the one thing that spearheads it, the impetus of my ship is gone, and never to return to set sail with me again.

The moments we had together, will always stay here in my heart, and never shall they be forgotten no matter what the outcome of our relationship may be. For you, have changed me. You, have sculptured me into the creation that I am now. You, have made me who I am today.

Without you, I would be a lost soul, wandering relentlessly around the face of the Earth. But the day I met you, I was found and taken away from that forsaken path of blindness.

The delicate and natural touch that you tend to lay on me everytime I need you to, just soothes me and gives me that sense of serenity that I long for all this while.

The times where we would spend nights and at times days sitting at our den, where we would study together and share our thoughts on the things we learn.

But of course, I was no more than just a student. For your cunning level of intelligence surpasses me in every single aspect of education. But who could blame you, for you have a gift unlike any other, a photographic memory which captures and snaps everything that you see. A gift so extraordinary that sometimes it surprises many, but to me, you're just being yourself.

Because everyone is special in their own unique way, and you are no different. Your beauty on the outside and elegance doesn't really comply to the level of intelligence that you have, for many with the beauty doesn't have the brain.

But you are different. You give people the impression of the "typical blonde", but then you end up being one who puts an exclamation mark on top of everyone's head.

The times where you would sit on my lap as we studied, the times where you taught me things I couldn't even see right before my very eyes, the times where we would laugh and smother each other during our studying process, is what makes studying so memorable and worth remembering.

I dare say that you are the one thing that drives me to strive my best in doing what I do.

Because your ever so cunning and breathtaking presence just blows me away and makes me want to come back for more.

The times where we used to embark on our little quest of shopping too just makes me feel more complete. Despite me not liking shopping that much, the thought of just being with you is what makes me give in to my dislikes and convert them into likes.

The times we giggle and laugh, and although sometimes at people, just really makes my day.

The times where just watching you try your outfit on, mystifies me with the style and the class of your elegance.

The times where we would just sit down at the end of the day and just snag a cup of hot chocolate makes all of it worthwhile.

You made my day countless times whenever I'm with you, for you are the one person that makes my heart beat fast and slow at the same time.

The days that we would spend during the holidays, oh how they just seem so short, but yet so sweet and lovely.

Just holding your hands as we go out to meet up with your friends and just relishing you in my arms when we go for a drink or two just perfects my holiday.

Not only that, the times where we would lay on the couch holding each other while watching movies just really warms my heart with the soft ember of trust and love.

Holding you here in my arms never seems to stop putting a smile on my face for the affection and the feelings I have for you are undying.

And the nights we spent together were just as memorable as the days were. Something worth to remember, the moments of togetherness.

Yes, those nights where we would eat chocolates and talked about almost everything were nights of happiness.

Those nights where we would go out with sis to a nearby mamak stall and just chill out or maybe just go to the park nearby to enjoy the cool night breeze were nights of enjoyment.

Those nights where I would just hold you close to me with my arms and give you a kiss on the cheek before watching you doze off to slumber land were nights I would never forget.

Because knowing that you would be next to me as I sleep, that feeling is so comforting and reassuring. For you and I know that no matter what may happen, we'll always be by each other's side.

Yes, those nights of just holding you and sleeping next to you, somehow were nights that I could easily sleep compared to other nights.

The anniversaries that we had, and those special occasions like New Year's Eve and birthdays, were times I would never forget too.

Oh, the sweetest date of my life, the 2nd anniversary of our love, where we went to your apartment and where we had that glitch of candle light dinner.

Romantic it was, lovely it was, but it was nowhere near compared to you. Because of that dinner, where of course we had to roast the chicken ourselves in the mist of everything, I have come to love you more for what I could only get you was that amber coloured ring from Elle, but what you did for me was totally out of this world.

A kiss first on the cheek before asking me to look back, and there it was. That 6 feet high card, with our picture when we spent the night gazing at the stars at the park in the middle, and of course, the lovely decorations of " Happy 2 Years Together Baybe ! ".

That moment will always be in my head no matter where this road takes me to.

And how we spent our New Year's Eve was just magical. The balcony, the fireworks, the cuddle, the peck on the cheek, the chocolates, the flowers. Just lovely. <3

Ah, the taste of Ferrero Rocher reminds me every bit of what happened that night. Sweet, lovely, and everlasting.

The times where we would call each other everyday just to check up on one another is what makes me feel so cherished and cared for.

The one call that we would spend around half an hour after we're done schooling.

The one call that we would spend around an hour after dinner.

The one call that we would spend around another hour before we sleep.

And in between, maybe some text messages and a few minutes calls too.

But it seems like as though we're living in a routine isn't it?

Well, actually, baybe, I couldn't believe that you are that understanding. That trustful, and certainly, I couldn't ask for more.

For you know that I need time alone at times, and despite not following the call times, you knew that I had stuff to do and had other thoughts on my mind.

But then, that only contributes to what we have to say on the phone, doesn't it?

Oh yes, the times where I felt so comfortable just telling you everything, and knowing that you will always be there to stand by me and tell me everything is alright.

No secrets, no lies, no deception. Nothing but the truth.

That's the trust I had for you baybe and I'm very very sure that's how much trust you put in me too. <3

I still remembered the times we had during our early days where we would talk and never want to hang up. The playfulness of our love at that time, well, it just goes to show that we had gone through so much until the flower of our love blossomed.

Even the times when at school, where you would just text me at the right moment when I needed someone to talk to. I don't know how you knew, but you just did.

Yes, those times were times I would never forget, for it got me through many of my woeful days.

Those days where I just needed to let my thoughts out, and you're always there to listen to them, and never judge them no matter what they may be. You were there to catch me when I fall, and pick me up when I was feeling down.

The times where we would go for a movie or two with your friends, although I'm not close to them and I was reluctant at first, but in the end I obliged to join in. Despite that, I couldn't dare imagine what it would be like when going out with them.

But all my doubts, all my fears were not left unanswered, as you came and brightened up my day with that delicate smile and trustful company of yours. Because you never left me by myself despite being there with people whom you see everyday in school. You never left me there to just be an observer as you stood there with me, next to me, side by side, as we strolled along the walkways of the malls that we go.

How you would not left me unattended and how you would just explain things to me so that I would understand and how you would keep me close so that I won't feel alienated just reassures me that you're one of those few girls who believe that love isn't something to hide nor something to be shy of, unlike many other girls.

Oh, and how could I ever forget the times where we would just lie somewhere be it on the park grass or on the bed or the couch and just let the hearts do the talking in the silence of everything. The company and companionship that we provide each other certainly was something I would want to have above anything else in this world.

Despite the lack of conversations at times, just knowing what you feel for me and how I know that you know how I feel for you is just what makes me so comfortable and undeniably at peace as well as happy when being there with you. <3

We had our fair share of troubles too, like the time dad found out about us and he did nothing but forbid us from sustaining our relationship. But even so, it only made us knew how much we cherished and needed each other.

It only made me love you even more for you would take the risk of making this relationship work than to give in to dad's demands.

The sheer joy and happiness that we endured through this relationship is something I would never ever forget as long as I'm still breathing in this world. For you have gave me something special and something people find, but never seek. You gave me love and that has made the difference in my life. For it is better to love and lost than to never have loved at all. <3

Yes, the times we had and the memories we shared and the moments we embraced together were just breathtaking and magical.

How you would just look me in the eye and give me that ever so lovely and sweet smile.

How you would just see me and ask "Is something wrong?". And I would always reply "Nothing.".

How you would just look so amiable and elegant everytime I gaze upon your stunning figure of loveliness.

Oh, baybe, how you have changed my life so much in such a short period of time. 3 years now seems all so short but in fact, it was much shorter. I'm sorry baybe for the times where I preoccupy myself with my selfish acts of being alone, and I'm truly sorry for the times where I made you question the placement of my heart.

But I'm really sorry for the times I hurt you, if I did, and certainly, I'm regrettably sorry for how our relationship had to end.

Certainly, I would give up anything just to have you back here.

You are my heart, my mind, my body, and my soul. You are my everything.

You gave me hope, you gave me something to believe in, you restored my faith, but most of all, you made me believe in love.

The days of what we had are days I would certainly remember in my mind for those days are days that I truly enjoyed myself living life the way it is.

Those moments we had, cannot be summed up in this post I know. But at least I could just conjure a small portion of what we had between us. 3 years cannot be put into one post, 3 years cannot be summed into one blog, 3 years cannot be compared even to a thousand sunsets.

Baybe, I love you, I always will. <3

I know that it might be over, and I will have to move on. But the memories you have buried in my cranium, will be something everlasting to me.

A Moment's Breath, Everlasting Remembrance. Notice what I'm trying to point out there?

Well, if you don't then nevermind, but if you do, this is just a small piece of my mind of what I think about *coughs* *coughs*.

Thanks for reading this long and heavy post. Thanks a lot, for without knowing that you read this, I would never have even began my blogging platform.

Perhaps maybe a change of link, or a new blog, or maybe even just creating only a list of people to be invited to read would be much more private and maybe better.

I will consider, but in the meantime, thanks for reading again. Good night people, and sweet dreams. =)

Of Fairytales and Gemstones

Once upon a time, there lived seven dwarfs, bla bla bla...The witch poisoned the apple, and the beautiful girl ate it, and she fell into eternal slumber. The witch then was killed as she fell off a cliff, the seven dwarfs mourn over the death of the girl. Then came along a prince and kissed the girl and revived her ( forgot how ), and they lived happily ever after.

Seems all too familiar?

Yea, I know, but sadly, in life, happy endings only exist in fairy tales, don't they?

How many times you would go to say that after you've gone through a rough patch, then you would live happily ever after for the rest of your life?

Well, can't think of any time that you would resort to that sort of thinking right?

That's the fact of life. One full of lies, deception, bitches, assenines, corruption, idiocy, stupidity, and pure crap. Well, if you haven't encountered those, then let me tell you, you have only experienced some what, 1% of life?

Apparently, if you're borned with a silver spoon in your mouth, then that might be a different case.

The times where we come to see life as something to look forward to is never really what we would come to expect it to be, because life is full of surprises, but not when you need one.

Unlike *coughs* fairy tales *coughs*, surprises tend to happen too, but always the obvious and the beneficiary of things will go to the good people, and always the villains lose/die/is defeated at the end of the story.

The total unfair and biasness of fairy tales, whereby every single one of them are the same, in which the endings always are happy for the good people, and the villain always suffer and never to be judged fairly based on their predicament solely.

In contrary, the difference in reality is, everyone is judged by their predicament and not everything goes your way. You might do good deeds as great as Mother Teresa or Ghandi, but you will never end up being close to etch your name amongst these people. Why?

Because that's life. Life is nothing close to fair. Life isn't all what you think it is, why?

Because when shit happens, shit happens. Yes, there are miracles, but how often do they shine upon you and escort you to the path that you desire most.

The never-ending journey of pain and despair really just burdens people whom seem to live life the proper way. Life is never easy, and it's never easy experiencing life or growing up because you're opened up to new experiences, which could be good times or rough times, but no matter what, it's never easy to go through them, even the good ones.

Why?

Because the good ones never come easy, you work hard for it, you sacrifice for it, and most of all, you endure the suffering after you experience the good in life, unless of course you're Angelina Jolie's daughter, then there could be slightly less suffering.

Well, apparently, my life isn't all that perfect either. Hoho, the obvious? In fact, nobody's life is all perfect and all good, and nobody's life is all evil too. Everyone has their fair share of good and bad in them, but at the end of the day, it is up to that person, to utilize whichever necessary to gaze upon and deduce the proper action to be taken on a certain situation.

I can't say that I've done all good things in my life, because I have my fair share of evil, naughty and maybe bad things that I've done in the past. Yes, might be a surprise to you, might be not, but that's the fact.

But even when you're going through rough patches, or spreading bad karma around in life, there's always something in this world that makes everything seem all so right. It doesn't matter whether it's doing the right thing, or doing what seems right to you, but this thing in life just tells you that it is right no matter which path or decision you choose or make.

Ah, the ever so amiable beauty of it makes my heart feel so warm. The ever so shining incandescence of its majestic exterior looks just makes me feel like I'm in heaven. To just relish it and hold it in my arms just makes me feel as though I'm touching an angel that's sent down from above.

Its authenticity is surreal but its fragility is something not to be neglected. Because never will you find something so beautiful, something so amiable, something so elegant, and yet it's so tame and timid yet lovely at the same time.

Yes, the one relic that takes the test of time to prove how much it is worth. The one thing in this world that has survived through the ages and brighten up every man's day.

Gemstones.

Why these gemstones?

Well, if you know me well enough, then you'll know. =/

I'm Such A Bitch

Okay, I haven't been updating my blog lately. Yes, I know, I'm lazy again and again.

And yeah, being a procrastinator doesn't help that much, but hey, what do you want from me?

It ain't easy to multitask all my stuff you know. Sighs, so much to do, so little time to do it. Well, trials are coming, guess I'd better start thinking what to study now before I finally study on the 7th of August. Sighs, baybe, where are you when I need you? <3

My Cutted Leg

I just played football in the house and broke a piece of glass with my leg. Now the back of my leg's bleeding non-stop and got like 4-5cuts on it, not sure whether there's glass inside it though. Gonna see the doc now. Then come back really gotta start my project. Sighs. =/

Projects !

Omg, I just realized that I am a freakin' lazy person and a very very professional procrastinator.

Ish...

I was given my moral project bout' what, 2weeks ago? As in the deadline to pass it up.

And yes, tomorrow is the deadline and I haven't done anything. Yes, mark my words, anything!!!

Sighs. And yeah, I still have my add maths project to do. WHICH IS ALSO DUE TOMORROW!

Hohoho.... I've got 24hours to type, print, write, take photos, either print photos or wash them, compile everything, find proper paper to write on, and bind the projects. Yes, 24hours, and I haven't got a clue on how to do some parts of my project.

Guess I'm destined to fail SPM. Lalala...

Tags

Okay, just to fill in the void that I left for the couple of days.


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Tagged by Hui Yat.

Four Jobs I've Had In My Life :
1. Emo boyfriend
2. Selfish prick
3. Unconcerned bout' studies type of student
4. Being myself



Four Places I Have Lived :
1. My current house, Mutiara (opposite Leisure Mall )
2. My cousin's house ( right behind my current house )
3. My ex's apartment
4. School



Four Places I Have Been On Vacation :
1. Madrid, Spain
2. Rome, Italy
3. London, UK
4. Hong Kong



Four Of My Favourite Food :
1. Ice-cream !
2. Chocolates
3. Potato chips
4. Spaghetti !

* Yea, I know, I love eating unhealthy food, so what? Blueks =P



Four Places I Would Rather Be Right Now :
1. On my bed
2. Lying on the sand at the beach
3. In the futsal court
4. In your arms T_T



Finally, the Fantastic Four Friends for Tagging :
1. Anyone
2. who
3. is
4. interested...


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Tagged by Ming Wai.


Rules:
* Each blogger must post these rules first.
* Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
* Bloggers that are tagged are to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.
* At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
* Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.




Fact#1 : I hate to be judged by people


Guess the fact itself explains everything doesn't it?

Like how someone judges you based on what other people comments about you rather than knowing you in person. Well, I don't care, better leave it that way. Coz' maybe you're not meant to know me, or come to know anything about me due to your ignorance and obliviousness.





Fact#2: I am a narcissist in disguise


Yes, I am. I can't stop staring at myself whenever a mirror pops up in front of me.

As in seriously. I'll be like every 5-6 seconds take a look at myself, check out my different looks from different angles...Bla bla bla, you get the point.






Fact#3: I'm a rather pathetic and apathetic person


Yes, pathetic and apathetic as well.

I for one am leading a life which is kinda sad, coz' it revolves mainly around my ex last time. And now that she's moved to London, well you get the picture. I'm lost and very very socially disturbed at the moment.

Emotionally as well. And for the apathetic part, those of you in school should know.







Fact#4: I honestly dislike copy-ers


Well, I for one, know that many people copy me, and stuff like that, like the stuff I say and all. But I tend to just let it be, as well as how I accessorize myself.

But ish, I tell you, I honestly deep down rather would prefer if you didn't do so. It just frigging' takes away my personality and it frigging means you don't have one yourself.

But hey, if you are like that, I can't change you. If you love to leech stuff from people, I can't change you. All I can be is me, and hopefully I will be able to find nicer people out there.

My uniqueness also always kena taken away wan. Sigh.

Form 2, started wearing wallet straps to school, Quiksilver ones.
Days later, people started wearing them too. Ish.

Form 2, started wearing collar pins, those SJI ones and others.
Weeks later, people started wearing them too, yes, they wore weird ones some more. Ish.

Form 3, started wearing wristbands to school, yes, it started with the Force of Nature wristband.
Weeks later, woah, damn many people also wear. Everyone started like this Nike glitch la, then all wear colourful la. Wtf. Ish.

Form 4, bought this orange Crumpler bag for like RM350. Brought it to school for a couple of days. Then, it was holiday.
Came back to school, Jason Tan was wearing the same bag and I was like WTF!!!!!!

Form 4, bought this black Nike bag to set myself apart again.
Months later, 3-4 people in the school were having the same bag. Ish I tell you.

Oh yeah, forgot to mention, form 1, started gelling my hair and spiking it a lil when everyone was still either center-parting or side-parting theirs. Then when form 2, woah, all also gel their hair. Chi sin man the number of people who did it. Don't wanna mention here la, but nvm, I accept that, coz' maybe you guys do look better with your hairs gelled.

Form 5, started listening to my iPods in class and in school.
Weeks later, everyone also bring and then listen in class, though some kena tangkap, all also followed the same style, put in the shirt. Ish.

Now, I'm wearing a white Quiksilver belt to school. Yes, WHITE ! So what, bite me.
Wonder what's gonna happen next.






Fact#5: I tend to either sleep damn early or damn late


I've tried not sleeping before for 3days! Woo...

Anyways, erm, I tend to either sleep damn early, like 11+ or at times at 3+.

Form 2 was sick though, everyday 4+ wan. Hehe.

And yeah, holidays. Sleep at 5, wake up at 2.





Fact#6: I have nails which are 0.7cm long now


Yes, no joke. 0.7cm the longest, others average about 0.5-0.6cm.

Though one of my thumb is only 0.1cm, due to the fact that I chipped it some time back. Ish, it was damn pain okay T_T





Fact#7: I'm a hard person to like, but an easy person to hate


Yeah, you got that right, I'm either gonna be a darn good friend of yours, or I'm gonna be that one person that you would hate for the rest of your life.

No other ways about it. Coz' if you don't fit in the above, then sorry to say that you don't know me well enough. =/

Sighs. Nvm, but I tend to be an easier person to dislike rather than to like. Yeah, at times I've got some shy personality about me and at times I just can't find the right catch phrases to say.

But heck, I don't care, I've got someone who understands me ever so well. <3 style="font-weight: bold;">Fact#8: I'm best used as a pillar and nothing more


Well, I know stuff that quite a lot of people don't know. Yes, quite a lot. Not to be revealed here of course, coz' I'm the pillar of silence.

At times I surprise people with my knowledge on certain situations about life and people around, but I've just been keeping quiet the whole time. Yes, I notice a lot of stuff, and know a lot of stuff. Especially whenever someone just looks me in the eye, and tells me something. I can tell whether it is a god damn lie or some kind of cover-up. *coughs* Like today...*coughs*

It's just that I keep them to myself, used to talk about it with my ex, but now it doesn't seem like I can tell anyone. Everyone's just so judgemental, and they can never keep secrets like I do. The urge to just tell someone about what I know? Well, I know my limits. Heck, I'm the pillar, if I can't do it, who can?

People talk to me, many have, bout' their problems, bout' issues, bout' relationships, bout' life. I try to be there, as I am the *coughs* pillar *coughs* for you to lean on for the moment. Coz' when all that of your life is over, you move on from it, and as you move on, you not only put your past behind it, you leave the pillar there too. But nvm, I'm a pillar, a lifeless abstract object which signifies nothing more than just something to lean on. Yeah, those talks we had, as in me and you people, I've never once told anyone about 'em. As in the content of the talk, coz' I know that no matter what I do, I'm always gonna be a pillar. But even if I am forever a pillar, let me be one that I can be proud of. And not some pillar who blows away everyone's stuff.

It doesn't matter if you don't remember them, but I for one, will keep them in my heart. =) Coz' the pillar is something where things go in, and never go out. And where you lean on and then move on with life. I know things many don't, I've shared things many don't have, I've kept things that many don't know, but I'll always be that one person, that one person whom you will seek just for the sake of leaning on.

Baybe, I miss you honestly. Coz' you're my companion, the pillar to my pillar as how I am to you. Sighs. Didn't know doing tags can be so emo. =/

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Caught In The Middle

" If a girl makes you suffer before you're even with her, then she's not the one for you ".

To even think of the fact of being with someone that torments me before I'd even set foot on her heart is just unbearable. Sighs. The wicked and dreadful weeks I've spent since a couple of months ago has truly blinded me and place me in this place covered with the thick fog of misunderstood and unreliable feelings.

How I'd wish I could just get away from the fog and find a place to see the Sun set and rise. I have not been myself lately, although not many of you noticed much changes, but I couldn't care less about what you think anymore. The mind tells me to forget, but the heart tells me to forget about forgetting.

The never-ending journey of love that sets sail upon the river of time to the ocean of endless eternity. Oh, how I'd wish I could embark on its journey with it, but unfortunately, my companion to aid me on this journey is either long gone, or never to be found.

The companionship that some have given me, is priceless but at times, it all seems so predictable. The many faces that appear on my doorstep makes me wonder, who am I to you? That feeling of just wanting to know, and that curiosity of knowing what is unknown and foreign to me.

I look out the window, and I see the chirping sounds of the birds and I hear the buzzing sounds of the bees. It relaxes me for the moment, but when I reflect upon my life, I see nothing but a path that has been smothered with everlasting love on one side, and lies and deception on the other. Which side is this path moving towards now is yet to be known. But I do hope that I won't be caught here, in the mist of things, with my soul tormented by the very person that gives it life, lost in this universe without any navigations, and with my heart lying dead in Davy Jones' Locker.

Sighs, what in the world is wrong with you, Ken? I myself ponder upon this question. Maybe it's the fact that my feelings cannot be let known for I fear that I will lose what I've been trying so hard to find. Or maybe it's the fact that I build this wall around me where nobody can breach through it. Or maybe it's the fact that I've realized that my life's been nothing but just being a mere pillar for people to lean on for the moment, and when that time has gone, the pillar is then forgotten and never to be remembered.

" When you're gone, the words I need to hear to always get me through the day, and make it okay, I miss you...".

I hope that my decision now, will make me someone that I hope I will be in time. For I think now, it is time to forget about the things that don't mean much to me. There is no point in hoping or suffering over something that just isn't meant to be. I feel hurt, I really do, for the oblivious surrounding that I seem to be trapped in, suffocates me with the decreasing amount of room to breathe in this little globe.

I may regret over the next stone that I'm about to step on in life, but if it makes me feel any better, and certainly if it doesn't get me into another landslide, I shall make that step, for I feel that moving on and even if it means forgetting, I just have to for I do not want to be a fool nor an idiot anymore. Assume whatever you want about that, but I'm sorry, words cannot describe my apologies but I hope one day, the understanding of this situation will knock on your door and I hope then, you would understand.

If it is not meant for me to fulfill my search for my soulmate, then so be it. I would never want to get myself into a rather frustrating situation anymore, for to love, is to let love find you. One day, I hope that I won't be lost in this. One day, I hope I will find someone who will suffer with me the pain and enjoy with me the happiness and joy that life brings. One day, I hope that I will forget about the "stains on my jacket". One day, I hope that I will forget you. And one day, I hope I won't, I won't be caught in the middle anymore...

"If everything's made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am". ='(

Have You Wondered?

Okay, this goes under 'Thoughts', so therefore it is not going to be Italic. =)

Have you ever wondered?

What your life would be when you're old ?

Who will you be married with when you're let's say 27 ?

Will you even be married when you're 27 ?

Who are your friends when you're 27 ?

Do you even have friends when you're 27 ?

What will you be working as when you're 27 ?

Are you even alive when you're 27 ?


Sighs. Don't know why, but I feel as though my life is well, lifeless. =/
I somehow now tend to appreciate the simple things in life, and rather forget all the complex stuff around me, like studies and relationships. Somehow the simplicity of things just keeps me calm and peaceful.

Though it is hard to find this calmness, I tend to seek for it whenever I can. Sighs, it ain't easy to search for it, but certainly it's worth every second to savour it.

Life is too short to ponder upon the questions and problems around us. If you look at it one way, to you it may seem that one day has passed. But if you look at it the other way, it means one day less your time on Earth. =/

I don't even know what I'm typing here actually, just that I feel I've got stuff to say. Sighs, the dawn of college life falls upon me. Wish I could have loyal high school friends that'll stick it out with me till the end. They're loyal to a certain extent, but when things get messy, they bail out all the time. Sighs.

Still not a day goes by, that I stopped thinking about you. Coz' you are always on my mind, tormenting me without knowing it yourself.

I wonder, who are important to me in my life? They're here for now, but as for college life and working life, they tend to fade away with time. I just want to know, am I important to you? Who am I to you? I wonder, yes I really do wonder. Hmm...

I tend to put importance into people who don't put that importance in me. And that is the same as placing trust in the wrong people, as well as expecting too much from him/her. Sighs, it's just a matter of time I guess. But I'm already starting now, as in to see who is important to me. Hopefully I don't make mistakes coz' the deeper you get sucked into a whirlpool, the more damage it's gonna bring to you.

I wonder, when I move to Sg. Buloh, would you still want to hang out with me? Would you still even contact me? Would you still even want to call me out to yc or anything?

Sighs, words tell you one thing, but actions tell you another. Doubt any of those will happen. Baybe, how I'd wish you were here with me. Then, I'd never have to face this cold cold world alone. But you're gone now, and I have to live with that, even if it means being stuck here pondering and wondering how my life's gonna turn out.

The sweet memories that we had, will always be here in my heart, and certainly I would never forget that smile you give me everytime your eyes connect with mine. The sheer elegance and companionship that you brought me, I shall cherish no matter what. Coz' through all the tough times I've gone through, at times even when it means just being there in your arms, it feels so so comforting and reassuring.

You complete me, as simple as that. Coz' I know you do not care what other people may say about you being with me. And surely, it doesn't matter to me too. Coz' every single time, you're not afraid to show how much you care, and how much you really do want things to work out between us, even when in front of your friends, or in front of ah jie, I truly do love you for that, coz' you're never afraid to be there with me even if it means holding my hand despite me being that outcast among your friends. <3 <3 <3

Sighs. I wonder, will I ever find someone as caring as you? Will I ever? Ish, I don't know what to do. I feel insecure, incomplete, and uncared for. I may be paranoid, but hey, what's life without assurance, right? =/

I just don't know why. Sighs, now I wonder. How foolish can I be? To care for those who ain't ever gonna care for me after high school. And to ignore those who have a better possibility of sticking with me after high school. Sighs, I guess I'm a blind fool all this while. Sorry to certain people for this, it hurts I know, but it hurts me more to realize this. T_T

I wonder, is it time for me to let go? Is it time for me to move on? Is it time for me to search for someone who likes me for me? Sighs, I wonder, when will be the time.

No matter where I go, I'll always remember you, you, you, and you. All of you. Even if it seems like I don't care, I just want you to know, I'll be there for you, when the rain starts to pour. =)

I may not know much about what you people go through with life, maybe it's coz' we're not close, or maybe the level of transparency between us is rather poor, but no matter what, I will never betray the trust that you have bestowed on me unless you betrayed mine. Considering the fact of the secrets that I have kept from people over the years, though they might have forgotten me, but certainly I have not forgotten them.

Aite, that's all for this post. Nites ya'll. And don't waste your life on sleeping, coz' you'll have plenty of time to sleep when you're dead.

"Loving you is the only thing I can do, but you never noticed, you never knew...Coz' you've always just saw right through".

Wei Yi

Omfg ! I'm addicted to Wei Yi ! Yes, that song from Lee Hom !

Ish ish, help me ! Omg. Listening to it day and night man. Damn chi sin, my play count thus far on my iPod is 72times ! Zzzz...

And yeah, I can sing the damn song despite being a banana...Rather fluent fyi ! Lalala...

Oh gosh, can't get it to stop. But I don't understand a single damn word he says. Hahaha. Funny eh? =P

CrazY DaY

Okay, so back with the Italic font. XD

So, today was kinda a hectic and very very weird day. Had 3 places to go. And all clash at the same time. Hoho, what was I going to do then?

Anyways, woke up at 8.30, rather late, as I supposed to leave the house at 8.30. Lolz. So, woke up, brushed teeth, ate breakfast, washed face with some cleanser thingy, then showered and changed, and got ready. For what? Deng deng deng deng, SBU's IU day.

So, met up with Jun Lin and Soh on the LRT, and yeah, David picked us up after that. And yeah, David, good job with erhem erhem, and if you need another poem, don't hesitate to ask. Hehe, perasan~ness.

Anyways, so reached SBU at about like 10.30? When the thing supposed to be at 10.00. Haha. But guess what? It started late and we were kinda early in a way. So Hui Yat and Shanaz emceed the thing. And there were few speeches and some sort of performances.

Lolz, there was dancing, *coughs* belly dancing *coughs* by the gals there and as well from a few members of the audience, ngek ngek XD

So, then there was a performance from the 3-point gang. I also dunno their names, but they're related to Francis, so call them 3-point gang la. Haha, and yeah, they were freakin' cool man I tell you. Damn yeng.

So I had to leave early due to the fact of Harry Potter. Ish, haha. So left at 11.30 for Times Square lor, if I didn't go Times Square, would have ended up at Mid Valley watching it. Hehe. But so I went to Times Square to watch it with a couple of friends lor, Ming Wai's treat of course. Hoho.

Then watch finished went to makan at the food court. And I tell you hor, dunno why I was so hungry, finished one plate of fuk kin mee rite, I go buy one plate of chicken chop fried rice. Haha. And yeah, I finished it ! XD

So, then Min Ray wanted to buy stuff at Sg. Wang and Low Yat, that time I was about to play cards dy, but then somehow I decided to follow him la. I also dunno why. And yeah, when everything happens for a reason, it really does. Hoho, coz went to Sg. Wang and guess what, met Hui Yat there. Haha, the irony.

So after shopping for his stuff, we ciao-ed back home. And reached back around 6pm lor.
And now here I am. Lalala... So, from 3places to go, I ended up going to half of the first place, the second place, none of the third place, and an extra two places. Woo... =P

Friday the 13th !

Okay. I'll try to post something up here now which is not Italic. Lolz.

Think it would be rather interesting how this post is gonna end up. Ngek ngek XD
Anyways, today, as some of you might not have noticed, is Friday the 13th ! Yes, bad luck day, cursed day, whatever you may call it day, whatever, what trikasleonaphobia day or something.

So, as it seems today was just like any other ordinary day in the life of yes, Ken. =P

But all seems so dull, until the point where Ken decides to spice things up a little. Ken listened to his iPod during the whole time he was at school. Whether walking pass the office, walking pass teachers, confronting teachers, walking around the corridors, or whether in class, Ken's earphone was always at his ear. I'm sure some teachers noticed it, but hey, I don't care.

Qwer, and a good friend of Ken today messaged Ken during school hours for like 4hours it seems? Ngek ngek XD
She had her problems and so did Ken, so they shared their thoughts with each other on it. She had some stuff with her bf, and Ken had his issues with his approach to certain people too.

Anyways, Ken didn't pay attention in class, but yet again, he deceived all the teachers with his slickness by scribbling his exercise book in fooling the teachers by thinking it was notes. Ken also managed to wrote a poem during recess again. Although it seems that Ken has lost his inspiration to write, he seems inspired by the fact of being lonely. =/

Ken didn't do much today. Except discover some stuff which hurts him more. The fact that nobody noticed some changes about him today. And the fact that nobody noticed that Ken wasn't wearing a wristband today. Nvm, it seems nobody is bothered by Ken's existence in school anyways.

To add to that, here are a few things Ken learned today in school :

---> In some cases, relationships are formed based on the need of companion and someone to rely on and other relationships are based on pure attractions. At the end of the day, it is up to the individual to work their relationship out.

---> If you are in love, you are in love. Sometimes even people in serious relationships can lose their feelings after some time so it's unfair to assume that all younger people experience puppy love.

---> Falling in love is easy, it's staying in love that's the difficult bit.

---> Some people date for the sake of dating and being able to say that they have a 'significant' other. These relationships are of course doomed from the start and are perfect examples of casual relationships.

---> It doesn't matter what age you are, just as long as you know what you want, how to go about it and that you want it to work out. It may not be a sure-fire success but at least you'd be going about it the right way.

---> It is better to love and lost than to never have loved at all.

---> It's not all about flowers and chocolates and fun dates and hugs and kisses. The tough part is how you make it through the times when things are not working so well, and how you handle your tiffs and whatever issues that may arises. Which begs the question, can you really be bothered ?


So, that's about what Ken has learned today. =)

And now back to the post, so today after school went to eat at mcD's after Tay suggested it.
So, makan and chit chat and played cards till like 3.30pm I think. Then, did a few confirmations and stuff bout' tomorrow's plans. So, it has been decided lor.

Called up a few friends to confirm some stuff, so that means tomorrow is I.U. Day at SBU and then Harry Potter later on. Qwer, guess that's the plan thus far. And might be going for Transformers next week, woots, it seems like I'm the only one that hasn't watched it, sad right?

So, Friday the 13th ain't really that bad after all. Only the fact that I come to realize that I cannot belong to someone unless I make that someone belong to me. Ish, it sucks, really it does. To know that, the only way to let love find me, is to wander around and not trap myself in this environment of mentally distorted beings.

Too bad I'm gonna miss MLTR though. Thankfully, I caught them when they were here last time around. =)

So, Friday the 13th. What more can you do to me besides make me blog instead of playing DotA. Well, it seems like I'm destined to never touch DotA anymore, but hey, there's more to life than video games.

You know those new year's resolution thingy, think I'm gonna do one tomorrow to set some stuff straight in my life. So, Friday the 13th, what else do you have installed for me? Besides telling me that I'm alone, and that I cannot love as I fear that I will not be loved back. Sighs.

Friday the 13th, tell me why. Why am I feeling on top, but deep inside, I feel so hurt and lonely? Why? Sighs, if I am happy for what I am now, why am I so sad? Qwer.

" To let true love remain unspoken, is the quickest route to rob the heart ".

Another quote from Ken. =)

Aites, that's all for Friday the 13th. Thanks for reading. Ciaoz people. =P

Another Day in the Bio Lab

Yes, bones. Bones = Science = Biology = Another typical boring day...Ish...



Even Peramin found a new way to take a nap in Bio class...Lolol...Haha...



And here's a pic of teacher dunno doing what at the front XD



Up close and personal. Lolz. Right at the back of teacher when I took this =P



Typical, playing cards again the chor di gang as I snapped their pics.



Much clearer pic. Ish, they really gila, play non-stop throughout 2periods of Bio.




And here's Ho's shoe. Rather weird when he puts the highlighter there. Seems like some sort of new fashion statement. Haha.

KeN_ ?

Edit : It's 12.30am now, so I'll post this up.

The real Ken. Who is he? What has he become into?
Gosh, I myself find it hard to answer that. But oh well, here goes. =/

Well, the real me ain't what you might think I am. I admit, yes I'm kinda like a spoiled brat. Yes, that's right. I take a lot of things for granted, and when Ken says a lot, it means a lot. As in seriously.

I don't know what is it about me that makes me think that Ken's life is so great. Is it not?
But then I ask myself, who is this Ken? Is it really that great being him?

Well, I dare say that it ain't bad being me, but it ain't easy being me too. Some of you may see Ken as this small little good for nothing rich kid, who does nothing else but care for his own welfare. I cannot change your opinion towards Ken, but all I can do is be myself and let you be the judge, coz' I am not you, Ken is not you, and Ken cannot force you to like him coz' Ken is not a materialistic and critically self-absorbed person.

It may appeal to you that Ken is rich. Yes, I know many of you think that way. But honestly, is Ken really that rich? =/

I doubt that, and yeah, I'm sure a lot of you are in disbelief and certainly would not reciprocate to what I say, but yet again, hey, who am I to make up your mind? I only can lay down some hard cold statements and yet again, you be the judge.

What about Ken keeps spending money? Why does he have so many stuff? Like those Polo shirts, that iPod Video, and that o2 XDA Atom?

You think Ken bought all of those? Well, he earned it. Yes, "earned" it. I've been a loyal son, despite being the only son, and yes, I have seldom crossed my parents and I've gained a certain amount of trust to earn what I get. Ya ya, say whatever you want. But heck, I did not spend my money on those stuff okay. Hello, even my ang pao money is kept by my parents.

So, do not assume Ken is rich. Coz' when you assume, you make an "ass" out of "u" and "me".



What about Ken's life in and out of school? Why does he seem so free and yet manage to cope with his studies during the time of need?

Well, simple. I used to put my feelings before me, as in love towards a certain someone. It inspired me to move on from whatever troubles I'm going through. That special feeling and knowing that I belong in a special place in someone's heart reassures me that I am worth something to this world.

That feeling in a way inspired Ken to be who he is today. But as they say, true love can only be found once. So, Ken is more or less in a rather hmm...How to put it...Ish, fucked up situation now that he has lost that place in that someone's heart.

Ken has no goals in life, neither does he have an ambition. But certainly he would not blow his future away as he did with some of the missed opportunities that came his way coz' Ken knows that there are more things in life worth living for. Such as seeing the Sun rise, experiencing sky-diving, going scuba-diving, swim with the dolphins, and enjoying the country life.

Ken's studies now has basically gone down the drain despite a tremendous rise in grades the previous term. Why? Coz' he has lost that inspiration and driving force which keeps him going. More or less like a car with no engine and a plane with no wings. Ken used to study together with his best friend cum girlfriend but now, he is no longer able to as she has moved away from his life and all there's left is a shadow of the past. T_T



How come Ken manages to know quite a number of people of the opposite sex despite not being a person of many words? And yeah, how come he always tend to be with a different gal or at times portray himself like a ****?

Well, honestly, I am attracted to the opposite sex, which means I'm definitely not a homo. *coughs* *coughs* Unlike a few certain people that I know. *coughs* *coughs*

Anyways, yes, it may appeal to you that I know a significant number of gals but somehow I don't know how does it occur to you that I am able to stay in contact with each and every single one of them.

I used to have a girlfriend, yes, and whatsoever the rough times I've gone through to focus on one gal, heck I'd have to say was worth it. And yeah, it doesn't seem to appeal to you that many of the gals I know are already happily "married" and yes, they never would want to be nothing more than friends with me. Simple as that. And yes, bout' that "married" part, don't ask me. Coz' I don't know why I seem to know so many gals whom already have a boyfriend.

Sighs, I've got like what, 5 gal friends whom are already hooked with someone else, and it rather seems that they are the ones whom tend to message me to check up on me. How saddening ain't it? Elaine, Sam, Gaby, Sheryl. Ish, semua pun dah kahwin, but they're the ones who message me sometimes daily or at least few days once just to know how I'm doing.

The rest certainly I could tell that they would never want to be part of my life, and yeah, just my friends I guess. No offence eh, but I'm sure that's the way you feel bout' me rite?



And yeah, if Ken says his life is sucky, why does he have so many people to hang out with?

It could appeal to you that Ken is a person of influence, and I do not ever doubt that. But Ken in a way, has people whom not really be there for him as a friend, they're just there to be there. Stick-ifying to Ken is a good thing, coz' you'll learn lotsa new stuff and lotsa funny stuff about life, but then when the sincerity isn't there, Ken doesn't really appreciate your presence.

You stick to Ken coz' you ain't got anybody to stick to. You pretend to care bout' Ken so that Ken will think that you're always around him coz' you care about him. The hoax and the deception, sighs.

Ken's word of advice : "Get a life, and stop leeching off of Ken coz' Ken is cool and you can never be like Ken no matter what you do or how much you try to copy whatever he does".



Why is Ken sometimes ignorant and acting like a real biatch?

Ken is ignorant at times, yes, but Ken is never a biatch. He may seem to you as one, but yet again, it is you to judge.

Ken is willing to give anything to whom he thinks is his friend, all you need is just to ask, or just to smile to let him know that he ain't the only one who actually cares.

Ken is always unprepared to initiate first moves, but he is still learning. Even his past relationship was started off by the gal. Yes, an opprobrium it may sound to you, but hey, Ken doesn't care, coz' he is proud of what he has achieved through that relationship.

And yeah, Ken seldom shows his soft side and his compassionate side, other than when *coughs* dating *coughs* (but only one gal has come to see that side of me), and when sacrificing himself for the sake of something more important, or when he opens himself to other people.

So, yes, Ken too has a soft spot in him. Everyone does, just that it takes the right moment and the right person to unlock it.

So never think that Ken is a selfish prick, coz' the more you think he doesn't care, the more he tends to surprise you with his care and appreciation towards you.

And yes, Ken notices many things that others fail to notice or see in people. But Ken is a rather secretive person, but deep down, he knows the puzzle that's going on inside.



These are just some stuff about Ken to let you know some stuff about him. So, never be judgemental towards Ken, he hates it. Never be ignorant towards Ken, he hates it even more. Never wear a mask when facing Ken, he hates that too. And never ever break Ken's heart, he'll never forgive you for the rest of his life.

" A true friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out ".

Those words somehow relates to the theory I stated in the post "Circle of Life".
And yes, being that true friend makes Ken a happy person, coz' he knows that there is someone who is gonna be there.

And yeah, simple thoughts really make Ken's day. A simple greeting or a good night wish, or something, it is significant enough to mean something.

Just like this one here, I'm not gonna say who sent it to me, but if you're reading, you'll know who you are :


" Remember to remember me. Forget of forgetting me. Even if you try to remember to forget me, I will never forget to remember to remind you to remember me ! Thanks for being a great friend to me..."

That really enlightened me, thanks again =)


I guess that's all about this post and Ken, well, don't be bothered by that message, coz' Ken knows how much he means to some people as they are to him. So, never assume Ken as who he is, coz' deep down, he can melt your heart and break it, but he can also mend your soul and heal it or give it life again. Aites, nites people.

And lastly, thanks a whole damn lot for reading. Really appreciate it. =)

Make Me Happy, Make Me Sad

Remember this? Well, sighs. Thought I could keep it, since they said that coach should keep it, and certainly none of the teachers deserve any of this. Then guess what, today Mr. Goh called me during assembly, yes, me only. Zzz. And then he told me that had to return it. Say put in school for pameran wor...Ish, stupidity...


Anyways, today was a rather up and down feeling at school. I was kinda enlightened at first, on a count that we had P.E. and then I went to the canteen after that.

And guess what? I bought burger again. Rofl, I went to eat it at the Bio lab later. Seriously was hungry lor. Never eat breakfast and all, so decided to get a small snack. XD

Then hor, have to write retirement speech for Mrs. Ong, ish. Nvm la, to help Kwong Lim, what to do. Then nvm, let Madam Ng check, she rejected it. Ask me rewrite with more points that she wrote. Ish, the best writer also kena turned down, nothing to be said there.

Then nvm lor, somehow went down for recess but was listening to my ipod the whole day again. So, I was caught by 2 teachers, but they didn't comment about it. So I don't care much too. Then I went to the corridor cum balcony place at the form5 block. Wah, I tell you, the breeze there and the calmness there hor, damn nice lor. As in seriously. Sit there listen to ipod and wrote out 2 poems. XD

But it was kinda emo though. So, after that the rest of the day was kinda on the downside I guess. Sighs, I also don't know why. Suddenly felt so stone and sad. That's when I just listened to my ipod and couldn't care less for anything around me. But then rite...Deng deng deng deng...I snapped a few pics during my stone-ness...




Here's Mr. Lee teaching us maths...Rofl, wasn't really paying much attention but yet, I understand what he's teaching =P



As usual, the chor di club having their usual meeting everyday...



And some of them were just scribbling the board...Ish, really nonsense...



While they were scribbling, minray decided to do some stone walk with his basketball so I took his pic...Blueks you bugger =P



And yeah, this was the view outside the class. And yeah, thatz Peramin taking his bag to ponteng the last period...Ngek ngek ...



Here's Jesse and a headless Solomon playing with paint outside the class...Chi sin man they two...



And yea, my ipod influence is spreading around as you can see, Saidy, Hisyam and Khairul are listening to their own mp3s. Woo...



And just a stone pic of me on the ride home, exhausting day...Ish...

Circle of Life

I sort of adapted this theory from one of the blogs I've read recently. And yes, it's a very very very relative theory and very true one indeed. Okay, since I'm wearing red, so let me be the red guy. Aite with that? Okays...So let me start the theory.


Basically, everyone has their own circle of life. Yes, everyone. Be it friendship, relationship, or whatever you may call it, there is a circle for everyone. What circle you may ask?

Well, it is sort of a circle about your life and the people around you. Nevermind whether they know you close or not, they are represented in this theory. As in inside or outside the circle.

So, as the theory is to be shown, I too have a circle. Yes, surprised? Lolz. Nvm, may seem new to you, but you'll get used to it. Okay, back to the point, yes, I have a circle too.

Now, let me present to you, the circle of Ken.





Deng deng deng deng. Okay, so this ain't my circle right now. But it was a few years down the road. Of course I am the red 'X', as stated above. And the black 'X' s are the people close to me. The blue 'X' is who you assume it to be. And the green 'X' s are the people you assume them to be. Nuff' said.

So, as you can see, my circle back then was "kind of" big. Or at least I thought it was. Back then, life was good, everything was fine. And yes, I was a happy and less emo person than I am now.





And this is the circle of Ken now. And the number of 'X' s don't represent the number of people. So, please don't be paranoid or what shit, aite? So, as you can see, the red 'X', or in other words me, am still living in my circle along with a few black 'X' s.

In case you didn't notice, the circle became smaller. Yes, after all the obstacles and the tough times I've gone through, the black 'X' s are still there. Or in theoretical terms, despite the circle getting smaller, the size of the 'X' s remains the same.

And yet again, the blue 'X' is who you assume it to be, and the green 'X' s are who you assume them to be. I won't speak about it.

Despite the departure of several black 'X' s, and yes, when they do depart, they depart in their own special way, I'll mention some later. Yes, despite that, I am still here today. I will not hold grudges, nor would I hold anything against the black 'X' s who left.

Coz' when you left my circle, I too have left yours. Meaning, I have become secondary to you, and your life as you have become to mine. Despite the ways you black 'X' s left, like ignoring me, no replies prior to contact, lost touch, backstabbing, leaving, and breaking off for some shitty argument or reason, I will not be the lesser man and seek revenge or seek ways to get back at any of you.

I would never resort to anything to hurt you people, coz' it is not within my will to keep you in my circle. It doesn't matter whether you left or not, coz' the fact is I am a better person than I was before as I have come to realize that the black 'X' s that wore masks to get into the circle, are now out of it.

And I am happy for that. I know some of those black 'X' s are out coz' of me, but it's certainly something about you that has made me resort to not retain you in my circle. You might think that it is my loss for not having you in, but if you think properly, it is yours for not letting yourself in.

I don't mean to bother about other people's relationships, therefore each 'X' in that circle has no partner except in that first picture. But as I said, it is your assumption to the theory.

I will not state names here, as it will lead to some form of discretion and sorry for the poor level of transparency and elaboration about the 'X' s.

That's all for the theory on the circle of life. Aites, ciaoz ^^

My One and Only...

The tapping and pressing feeling about my fingers. That same look and showcase of colour you give me everyday I see you. I just can't keep my eyes away from you after the moment I set them on you. It makes me want to stay with you for as long as I can.

This feeling you give me, that sound you make, just ensures me that you'll always be by my side. It may not seem like I care much about you or at times I take you for granted, but deep down, I just cannot lose you. Well, not again.

Your presence gives me that sense of security and the feeling that I am not alone in my time of need. Despite our differences, be it on the outside or the inside, I truly do need you and I truly do cherish you.

Whether you know it or not, I don't know. But the fact is that you are one of the few faces that make my day as each day goes by. At times, you break my heart when you don't respond to me, but at times you make me happy and sad at the same time.

I don't know how else can I express my undying love towards you. You are my companion, you are the world to me, you are my one and only...









Handphone !


Blueks =P

2hours of sleep = Stoned Day at School

Okay, I slept at 4am yesterday. Don't ask me why. I couldn't sleep. Somehow, sighs. Things just keeps playing through my mind and I'm like, gosh, it's dusk, who the heck is awake. Nvms, I went to school you know, amazingly. Hehe, managed to wake up. =P



Today was a mere waste of time at school. I sat outside the class coz' there was 6 relief periods. Yes, 6 ! Which means only 3periods of studying. Ish, shouldn't have went to school. Zzz...And I slept for about 3relief periods before I went out to sit and listen to my iPod.



I didn't eat during recess, so deng deng deng deng....Look what I brought up. Hoho... =D



Burger Ayam ! Yes, I had a bite already before taking the picture. It smelled too good to resist la. What you expect...Didn't eat breakfast wor =P



And I pretended to do add maths so that the teacher wouldn't notice. And then jun lin complimented me, " It's a waste Steven Spielberg didn't hire you as an actor." Muahaha...Thatz how good I avoid being caught =P



The rest of the class was basically stoned too. They played chor dai dee the whole time. Rofl =D



This pic somehow looks like a ghost. Notice the head coming out from the light. Qwer...



And yeah, just a random pic. The certificate and token of appreciation I received from Hisyamuddin. Lalala, and yes, I get to keep it ! So, back off ! =P

Of Firefox and Music

Well, Firefox has been pissing me off lately. I mean I've been trying to log on to some stuff, erhem, which certainly I remembered to mark the "Remember Me" tickbox. And yet, the next few days I enter the same webbie, it doesn't recognize my log in ID.

Sighs, really frustrating. Good thing I remember the passwords, if not really I'll sue Firefox man. Qwer...

Anyways, got quite a lot of stuff I want to write today, as tomorrow I won't be able to due to the fact I'm gonna have tuition. Huhu T_T

So, I'll just start off with expressing my gratitude to Firefox, despite the fact it has been wacky these few days. But certainly it's much easier to Google for stuff and the tab functions are fun ! Wee.. =D

And yeah, on a sidenote, here are the songs currently playing on my iPod and my computer everyday. Some of you might notice, but in case you don't, here they are :

Wang Lee Hom - Wei Yi
Wang Lee Hom - Kiss Goodbye
Goo Goo Dolls - Iris
Mandy Moore - Crush
Mandy Moore - Cry
Mandy Moore feat. Jonathan Foreman - Someday We'll Know
Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone
O' Town - All or Nothing
The Calling - Wherever You Will Go
Jay Chou feat. Lara - Coral Sea
Bellefire - You Were Meant For Me
Too Phat - Just A Friend
Savage Garden - Truly Madly Deeply
Savage Garden - Crash and Burn
Lifehouse - Blind
Five for Fighting - Superman
Backstreet Boys - Just Want You to Know




These 17 songs are the ones I'm listening to. Somehow, it feels kinda nice just to listen to them again and again. =D

And yes, I do keep them in a playlist, both in my iPod and my computer, that's why I know them well.

Aites, more posts to come. Gotta shower now first. Be back later...

Some Other Stuff About Me, Well At Least I Think It Is

Here's a few things I stumbled on at blogthings. And somehow, it really expresses me well. =)

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

You Are A Romantic

You life your life like a fairy tale... or at least you try to. Living for magical moments, you believe there's only one true love for you. Love is the most important thing in your life, and you don't take it for granted. Your perfect match loves to be in love as much as you do!

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

You are Milk Chocolate

A total dreamer, you spend most of your time with your head in the clouds. You often think of the future, and you are always working toward your ideal life. Also nostalgic, you rarely forget a meaningful moment... even those from long ago.

What Kind of Chocolate Are You?

You Sometimes Don't Get Enough Sleep

You're often more tired than you'd like, and you're probably not getting enough quality sleep. Sleeping a little more could make you a lot more energetic and happy. Try having a bedtime, keep your bedroom cool, and only eat fruit before bed.

Do You Get Enough Sleep?

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

Your Greed Quotient: 33%

You're a little greedy, but generally you don't let your desire get the better of you. You know that good things will come to you - as long as you wait your turn!

How Much Greed Do You Have?

You've Experienced 44% of Life

You have a good deal of life experience, about as much as someone in their late 20s. You've seen and done enough to be quite wise, but you still have a lot of life to look forward to.

How Much Life Experience Do You Have?

Your True Love Will Find You Eventually

You definitely put yourself out there a little - but you could be doing more. If you're truly looking for love, try doing more things and meeting more people. You don't have to actively look for love, you just need to stay active. Be out there a little more, and the right person will find you!

Will Your True Love Find You?

You Follow Your Heart

You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional. You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly. Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you. You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature. Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind

Do You Follow Your Head or Your Heart?

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to do more for you. With respect to money, you spend as little as possible. You think good luck doesn't exist - reality is built on practicalities. The hidden side of your personality tends to be a little selfish. You only do what interests you. You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked. When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends.

Who's The True You?

You Should Be A Poet

You craft words well, in creative and unexpected ways. And you have a great talent for evoking beautiful imagery... Or describing the most intense heartbreak ever. You're already naturally a poet, even if you've never written a poem.

What Type of Writer Should You Be?

Your Luck Quotient: 61%

You have a high luck quotient. More often than not, you've felt very lucky in your life. You may be randomly lucky, but it's probably more than that. Optimistic and open minded, you take advantage of all the luck that comes your way.

How Lucky Are You?

Well, I answered the questions straight with the honesty from my heart. Whatever the outcome I couldn't care less, but if it describes me, then so be it. Aite, thatz for this post. Though, some of it are really true la, cannot deny that. =P

Ciaoz.

Edit : Darn, there are words above the pics. Just that the colour of the font can't be seen.