Friday the 6th

Well, firstly I went to school in the mornings then wrote a couple of poems to fill in my time in the ava room. Lalala... Thank me david, I wanna hear it again. Haha.

Anyways, then had this stupid morning rehearsal which basically pissed me off a lot, coz' we were like standing in the sun for so damn long. But nvms, so I just beared with it then till recess when I was listening to my ipod then came a few other prefects telling me not to listen, and okay la, that was it.

I couldn't just have that moment of peace for myself, so nvm, wanted to go to the roof there again to chill out and clear my mind, then had to discuss with Bernard bout' his birthday thingy. After some babbling, I went to the roof for bout 45minutes there with few others, sighs, disturbing really.

No offence la, but I just wanted to be alone la. Coz' nobody else shares what I'm going through, so no point you go there with me. Sighs, really difficult to find myself out of this shit.
So, I had a talk with tay to ask him how to get rid of all my problems la. Well, the advice may not be that bad, but it'll certainly be like a very drastic change to me.

He advised me to limit myself to online about 2-3hours a day, and to clear all my stuff and arrange them in order. But the most of all he said, dun ever talk to gals! Woo...Rofl, he said they'll manipulate your feelings and stuff like that. And that they'll cause a distraction and make you feel even more lost.

I dunno what I should do, but I know I need to score well in my trials. Sighs, if tay is right, then I'm sorry to myself and everyone else about me for what I'm about to do. My ignorance and the distant-relation to the people I'm close with may hurt you, but it'll certainly hurt me a lot more. Tay, I heed your advice and I shall accept it. I shall not msg continuously or call for any longer than 5 minutes from now. Your guidance and your teachings are very much what I need right now for me to be pure like you. Ngek ngek.

Sighs, anyways, back to the story of friday the 6th, after that we went to mcD after sch to just chill out la. Me and jon had our emo session again, and he claims that I should forget about the people around me. Be true to myself, and that ignore the people whom cares for nth wor. I also dunno...Updates on bernard's weird birthday later on...ciaoz..