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Ken
It's 3 weeks before Valentine's Day.
A message pops up in your mind and you think about what you would be doing with your girlfriend on V'Day.
You think of a candlelight dinner, at a fancy restaurant, followed by a slow dance, and then passing her your Valentine's card, hand made by yourself.
So, as the days go by, that thought still stays in your mind.
Then you think, Valentine's is on a Thursday. Your girlfriend has work on Thursday, but an off day on Wednesday.
So you planned it perfectly, with Wednesday, being the 13th, as well as the exact date where you and your girlfriend have been together for 4months, be the day you take your girlfriend out for that dinner.
So the days continue to pass by, and then a week from Valentine's, your girlfriend tells you she has to work full day for the rest of the week.
You get a setback. But then you figure out Plan B.
So you still get your girlfriend 7 red roses, 7 white roses and 7 blue daisies as 21 flowers marks her birthday which is the 21st of the last month of the year. You go through the trouble of making her a card till 3am in the morning the night before knowing you have a Maths quiz the next day.
So you wanted to surprise her during her work break. But then you won't know whether she's free then. So you told her that you'll be dropping by later, without any giveaways.
She then tells you she's not going to work. Thus, hope is restored.
Then again, she says her back hurts, and she couldn't go out. You get another setback. Harsh isn't it?
So you try to plan again for the next day, which is the actual Valentine's Day. Then, you just remembered, it's your family's open house for Chinese New Year. So, there goes your V'Day.
You thought of asking her to come, but then you put into consideration since she can't even meet up with you when she has a day off, what are the odds of her actually missing work to come, right?
Hence, sums up the first Valentine's Day you never celebrated in 4 years. Saddening isn't it?
So you go to college where everyone thinks you had a great Valentine's Day, where in fact you did not. So well, now you all know, what a great Valentine's Day I had this year.
What happened to the flowers and the card? Thankfully Mr. Rubbish Collector helped me settle them.
That's all for now. Bye.
*Even if the sun refuse to shine, even if we met at different times.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Ken
I had the strangest dream when I was napping just now. I dreamt college was at Bandar Tun Razak. I dreamt I was stoning in college (okay, maybe this is what I do). I dreamt that I had a bicycle. I dreamt that me and Ho took the bicycle for a spin in the highway and we kept crashing and getting bruises but still laughed about it.
I dreamt we met Zhi Wei on the highway. Yes people, Tan Zhi Wei aka Man Ray, on the highway, wtf rite. Don't ask me why, coz' I myself want to know. Then, we ended up back in college having skipped like 3-4 lessons, and then everyone was puzzled by us returning with cuts and bruises, but yet, we were still laughing. Pfft. The end.
*AM to PM
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Ken
The one and only time I get to attend a full Backstreet Boys concert, it has to be one day before my Maths test. Pfft.
Why oh why must this happen. T_T
I've only caught them once during the Force of Nature concert, in which was the concert which marked the return of the band. Sighs. Curse you Mathematical Studies, and curse you Specialist Maths. Pfft.
Why can't I be a genius and not flick a single page and yet score good grades? Argh. >=(
*Larger than life.
Ken
Russian DotA machine Virtus. Pro, otherwise known as VP, is going down the drain. T_T
Having forfeiting from Pride #9 after a shadow of their best performance against MYM in the winner bracket's final and losing in ASUS Winter 2008 first round, it was clear that something was going on. Turns out the lack of motivation from pawning every single team in the world has been a norm to VP and thus, explains the loss in motivation over the past couple of months.
With vp.sahka and vp.smile (a.k.a. ARS-ART) leaving, seems like VP will never be the same.
Kudos to VP, and thanks for providing the best of DotA matches to the world.
Source : http://mymym.com/
It's sad to see my favourite team experiencing some conflict like that. Was rooting for them to go for their 4th straight Pride. Sighs.
Oh well, without them, I wouldn't have been as good a DotA player I am today. Thanks for everything. It's been great being exposed to the competitive scene of DotA and learning about the basics and the beauty of the game. Kudos VP and good luck.
*When it's over...
Monday, February 25, 2008
Ken
There's always a moment where you'd wish you would just disappear from the world and hide in this corner and consolidate yourself. It's not an everyday feeling, but it comes once in a while I guess.
All it takes is a little opening up to, and a little gesture of care, and that might, just might be able to convince that person to come out of solitude. But more often than not, that never seems to be the case, doesn't it?
Oh well, I believe that you'll only realize how much something means to you until you lose it. I don't put my hopes high anymore, for they crash and burn before anything actually happens. The need to hope, the need to expect the unexpected, will not be necessary anymore I guess.
For that, for this one time, I shan't blame myself for it, because I believe, that this time, it was and never has been my fault.
*Do you know what it feels like?
Ken
I used to be the envy of many around me. I used to be the guy which has everything going for him. I used to be the guy with anything and everything. I used to mean something. I don't know whether I am still.
I used to envy myself, for a particular reason. But now, I do not. Why?
Why don't you tell me?
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Sunday, February 24, 2008
Ken
I took a 3 and a half hour nap. Okay, so maybe it was longer than I thought I would have napped. Omg.
And I said the first thing I'll do when I use the computer is that I'll straight start on my annotated bibliography, but here I am now. Pretty much sets the tone for the rest of the day, no?
Why am I so indolent? T__________T
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Ken
I just realized that I've lost touch with the poetic side of me. And that could be the main reason why my Scribbles blog is so dead, as it was last updated last year. Pfft. This cannot continue. Nuuu T_T
What if I can't write poems anymore? Even now I'm beginning to struggle to think of something to write as a story. Omg la, and to thought of the dream of publishing a novel ( The End Has No End, Jonathan are you reading ?!?!?!?!? ).
Screw ESL studies, it's totally not English. It's like the Discovery Channel of English, whatever that means. Pfft. I'm bored with it.
And I've not done any of my homework which are due tomorrow. Sei mou? Aaaahhhh.
I need a nap. Bye.
*MYM > VP. T_T
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Ken
It's been a rather stoned day I'm having today. I don't know what I'm doing now. I feel as if I've isolated myself from the world around me, where I'm just that guy that everyone seems to refer to as that guy.
I feel like I'm lifeless, and I hadn't had the mood to do anything besides eating ice-cream, oh well who doesn't have the mood to eat ice-cream. Bah.
I don't know what to feel anymore, I don't know what is right anymore, I don't know who I am anymore. Maybe I am just that guy that everyone thinks I am.
It's gonna be a long long night I sense. Oh well, when it reaches tomorrow, I'm gonna be deprived of the thing they call sleep and then spend my day sleeping then flunking my Specialist Maths test on Monday.
Bah, not like as if anyone seems to care. Coz' I am just that guy, and nothing more than that. No?
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Ken
Sacrifice, something many people never seem to do, as when you rather take things for granted, you forget about other people's needs and wants.
Sometimes the things you do never seem to be enough for the person that expects you to fulfill that person's needs. Then again, sometimes all it takes is a little sacrifice, a little bit of giving, to actually put a smile on that person's face.
At times, all it takes is just to give a little bit and sacrifice a little bit of your needs to relieve the burden one person is going through. And believe me, that burden can be pretty heavy. Pfft.
When you take someone for granted, aahh, that's when you realize, in everything you do, you never seem to give but only take, and all you seem to do is expect so much from that person that you yourself don't know that you're actually bringing misery to that person.
So yes, a little sacrifice. And I don't know why I'm not using fullstops. Pfft.
Monday, February 11, 2008
Ken
I guess I finally found words to describe my personality and who I am. Strange as it seems, it's 99.9% true. Bah. Oh well, you be the judge.
What Justin Low Means |
 You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you. You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts. You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it. You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator! |
Ken
When you're awake in the middle of the night, pondering, tinkering and wondering on why can't you finish up your homework, is when you realize homework > you.
In this case, homework > me. Yes, since form 1? Lul.
I'm a darn good procrastinator, I procrastinate practically everything. From eating to sleeping (yes, I procrastinate sleep! ), sighs. Why am I such an indolent being?
"Why did you put me on a padesto? I'm so up high that I can see the ground below".
Saturday, February 9, 2008
Friday, February 8, 2008
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Monday, February 4, 2008
Ken
Gonna be working on my compilation tonight. Darn, 30-40 replays to glance through before recording. Sighs. But then, the best of things aren't easy to come up with, right? =D
Can anyone teach me how to edit songs? As in if I only want the chorus, how to edit the song? Bah, please and thanks.
Halo~
Friday, February 1, 2008
Ken
I don't know what to believe in anymore.
You took everything that's left inside of me, what I thought was right.
You act as if things can just disappear into thin air, but in reality, it's more intricate than that.
You pretend not to see me, not to listen to me, but the truth is, I'm still here.
You walk by me like I'm a ghost, but I'm still standing there.
Question is, for how long more?
Aaahh, thank God is the holidays.
Ken
Sometimes I wish you'd understand how I feel whenever you do these kind of things towards me, but I guess you don't. You were not like that when I got to know you. Where did that person went to I wonder.
I take in so much of the cold treatment, and yet I give out so much of warmth in doing so. But I guess none of my opinions matter anymore, don't they? For I am just 'that' person to you. Taken for granted you have of my presence.
I shall speak no further. All I can do now is hope, and I guess, take in more of what you're about to throw at me.
