Ken



Stwinkly/Starry the unicorn has been staying with me since the weekends.

She has been sesamized according to the girlfriend. Haha. =D

We shall see how sesamized she becomes in the next post then. Yay.

The girlfriend has been thinking a lot of rubbish, I find it funny in some way. Ridiculously funny actually. So yeah, don't think so much rubbish laaaaa. Piggle². =P

Ken


Tagged by Lynnett.

1. Six people to tag.

• Baby<3 (must do ah, lazy pig =P )
  
• Chee Kian
• Li Jia
• Jun Lin
• Mao
• Zhi Wei

2. Six things I'm passionate about.

• Spending time with the people I love.
• Doing things that appeal to me in a good manner.
  
• Sleeping, haha.
• Getting into trouble. Well, most of the time.
• Writing, but it seems rather dead now.
• Going on trips.

3. Six things I say too often.

• Onion
• Pig
• Bat
• Piggle / Pigil², well just the ²
• Baby!
• Darling <3

4. Six books I've read recently.

• Nicholas Sparks - The Wedding, stuck for like 3weeks now at chapter ten.
• Vincent & Friends
• How to be a Vincent?
• Vincent-the Boy Behind the Glasses
• Vincent, for Dummies
• What's your name? Bean, Vincent Bean.

5. Six songs I can listen to again and again.

• Shape of My Heart - Backstreet Boys (almost all of their songs actually)
• Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
• Superman - Five for Fighting
• Cry - Mandy Moore
• Complicated Heart - Michael Learns to Rock (yet again, almost all of their songs I could listen too)
• Drops of Jupiter - Train

p.s. : Six songs is too little to list down! Grrr.


6. Six things I learnt in the past year.

• Years of trust can be easily broken down but extremely hard to build up.
• People tend to change, unpredictably. But then, it's always better to accept these changes rather than take them as something random and look at it in a negative perspective. There's always two sides to things, just like how there are two sides on a coin. (:
• I need people more than people need me, especially the people close to me. But then, the latter seems to always be perceived in the minds of everyone. Oh well, gotta live with it.
• No one falls out of love by chance, it is by choice.
• Not everyone can be trusted, not everyone can be given that responsibility, not everyone has that common understanding as you do, not everyone can be relied on, not everyone shares that same conception as you do, not everyone wants to stay inside your circle, and lastly, not everyone wants to be a someone in your life. (:

I spent about 30mins doing this tag. Pfft. Longest I've ever spent. Oh wells. Time to do some homework, or at least try to do I guess. Toodles. =D

Ken

The girlfriend may be right to think that I've been thinking a lot of rubbish lately. I do not know why myself.

The thought just enters the mind ever so often, and yeah, leaves me in a river of mixed up perceptions of what may happen or what has already happened or what is happening.

I'm like covered deep inside a foliage of leaves. I need a way out. I need to see the sunlight. Yet again, salvation.

The girlfriend needs to stop drinking orange juice. It's been nothing but rubbish thinking everytime she gets her hands on it. Haha. =D

I've got the tendency to talk myself in bed these days. Weird. Yes.

We went to the library today. Seems like there are more people that seemed to be hardworking after all. No matter though, they don't have what I have.

The gift, and the joy that love brings. <3

Ken

It feels like a Friday, but it wouldn't be, until Friday has come. Presentation, presentation, no better time for it to come.

If I was someone else, and staring at me, I think I wouldn't recognize who that person is. Yes, that's how well I picture myself. I have not been sleeping well lately, and I guess that is the reason for the many unnecessary thoughts in my mind each day.

I've been dozing off in class more often than not this week, and that isn't a good sign. If I continue this way, I'm seriously gonna underachieve again for trials, and that would definitely screw up my whole course.

I can't comprehend where I am at, this very moment. Neither could I comprehend and digest everything that has happened and about to happen to me. The future bears a thought that seems embedded in my head for several days now. Not really an imperative influence it has on me for now, so let's hope it stays that way.

I have been neglecting my homework again, which yet again, isn't a good thing. I seriously need something to take this absurd course and all that it offers away from me for a moment. At least until the moment I pick myself back up I guess. Pfft.

My weekends seem relatively busy, but as always when the time comes, nothing ever seems to happen. Typical, ain't it not? Oh well, we'll have to wait and see I guess.

Time can't help me, at least not now. Instead, time is proving to be my worst nightmare. Salvation, possibly. But yeah, what's salvation when you're going from a quicksand to a whirlpool?

Meh, I guess I just have to live with everything. Let's just hope I don't screw up my life, again.

Ken

Things are never what they seem to be. Hmm, neither are they what you expect them to be.

Anyways, I have the tendency to draw in whirlpools whenever I'm at sea. The more you struggle to get out, the deeper you sink in. Ironic, isn't it? Yeah, it's hard. But at the end of it, I believe it is all worthwhile.

My Internet is running rather slow. I've no idea why.

I have started my routine of laziness again. Sleep, college, sleep, dinner, sleep. This is not good.

I've been sort of a disappointment lately, as to everyone, especially to my baby I guess. And I'm sorry for that. I'll try to be better, for the better.

Everyone seems to have realized that SAM is no play time, just like how it was two months before SPM where we had all this seminars. Yet, I'm still the same, just like back then, waiting for each passing day to go by and the moment where it is exactly 24 hours before the exams.

I hope I don't have to go through it again. My heart can't take it, not another time. Not now, not ever. But I guess I can't stop it, for I have no say in it. Time will tell. I want to be able to sleep well again.

My mind is confused as to whether what I'm thinking about is okay or not. But I always seem to think the latter would seem to be the case. Maybe I'm thinking too much, or maybe I am right.

Ken

If Holland's defeat to Russia already proves to be a bummer, that seems to be the least of my concerns. It's time to revert back to 2006, when Argentina got knocked out. Forza Italia *with a hush voice*. Hmm, think Spain's gonna win though. Oh well.

Today is a wasted day, besides waking up early, crashing MonRay's place (his parents are crazy people yo, us 6 crashed at his room, while 2 gals in another room, and 2 more guys in the living room, like some drunkard party, heh) and going back to bed again. It feels like a Saturday, and considering college starts again tomorrow, I seriously don't want to endure a whole day of talks that don't appeal to me at all.

I think Ronan Keating's songs' lyrics are quite meaningful, quite.

I don't have a hangover coz' I didn't drink yesterday, but it feels like I have one. I can't focus on even reading articles, and I feel stoned. Okay, maybe I stone all most of the time, but yeah.

I'm worried over things I don't have to, ignorance is bliss some people say, we'll have to see about that. I realize I don't know a lot about the people around me till yesterday. Seems like everything is different now, everyone. Ignore or ignore. My mind tells me the latter would do just fine, but we'll have to see I guess.

Ken

My blog is dying.

That ain't too good, no?

Ken

It seems like longer than two months, indeed it does. But yeah, happy two months baby! ;D

I don't know why, but I have a habit of screwing up in a lot of things. Pfft.

This happens to be one of them. I can't seem to find it, no matter where I've searched, and searched again, and again, and again. Sighs.

Horoscopes are pretty amiable at times, but sometimes they bring you back to reality, or so they seem to do so. Only if you believe in them that is.

I'm really really sorry darling. :/

Ken

I blew my mid-terms, or so my mum says I have. A new lief maybe? Don't think so.

There's more to life than a piece of paper. There's more to the world when you open up your eyes.

I shall be gone now.

Ken

"And nothing's greater than the race that comes with your embrace,

And in this world of loneliness I see your face".

Ken

My cousin and I talked about some stuff last night, and yeah, it was interesting to think about how boys and girls are brought up these few days. The differences, and yeah, the expectations and trying to provide what's best and all. Knowing what I've gone through before, as well as what he and his girlfriend has gone through, it's like de ja vu all over again. But yeah, that's life I guess. And I'm really sorry to my girlfriend for making her feel guilty and all, and I'm pretty sure she's pretty tired of me saying that and talking to her about it.

Sometimes I just do not know what to do with my life, and now seems to be the case more than ever. A knife or a rope might help end this misery, but I guess, it is not for me to decide whether I should put myself to eternal slumber. There is always a possibility of doing the right thing, but chances are, you have to gamble a little and take some risks. I just watched Elizabethtown, the reason for this paragraph I guess.

I hope I'm sailing in the right direction, for if I am not, I guess I'd possibly wind up in the middle of the ocean again. Holland just beat France 4-1. Some comfort at least, in satisfaction, but only for the moment.

Ken

College has started, has been anything but good, for everything I guess.

The lack of sleep is making my eye bags really really bad now. I look like I got a bruise under my left eye. Sniffles.

The river that flows through my mind has been nothing other than worries and unimaginable thoughts that might turn to reality. Where is my waterfall?

By the time the exam results reach the hands of the parents, I would have to come out with excuses in such that it was affected by the previous test in which I "did not think it would have counted". Pfft, I hate lying.

I've been sleeping for two hours every night, it doesn't seem sufficient, but it's enough to keep me alive. After all, succumbing to a long deep slumber might result in me worrying over things I am not supposed to worry at this point of time. I am content with that, for I cannot say I am not. =)

I think I am falling sick. My head is warming up and I can't walk straight. This is bad. Oh well, it don't matter, neither does anything else, as long as I have you beside me. <3

Ken

Spending time with my cousin sometimes do have some interesting moments. Just the other day we were talking about the price increase in petrol, and how that going to PJ and Hartamas to yumcha in the middle of the night would come to an end considering the amount of money that would be spent.

So he came up with a new way to yumcha. It is called online yumcha.

Online yumcha is how instead of everyone gathering at a mamak stall to contribute in empty talks and get a late night snack, everyone would gather in front of their computers and sign in to MSN or Skype and yeah, a conference.

So then how would those people satisfy their cravings of food in the middle of the night?

"Hey man, wassup?"

"Nothing, I'm making my own Milo Ais. What're you drinking?"

"Oh, I made Nescafe".

Yes, how depressing. Haha. I laughed and laughed when he told me this.

So then everyone would just sit there and IM each other or listen to each other talk nonsense, but at the expense of sitting in front of the computer. Oh well.

Badawi is crap. Yes, crap. Knowing he'll lose the UMNO elections, he increases the price of everything to make those Malays who won't vote for him suffer. Pfft. What a biatch.

Badawi is so not the way to go. BN was never the way to go this elections. Someone ought to assassinate him and get this hell over with. Oil prices increasing 30cents per month, electricity bill increasing by a possible staggering few hundred bucks, why not just put a price tag on inhaling oxygen?

Quoted from Ho, "What kind of leader is this man, shit leader. What does he expect from us?". Directed to another political head though, but yeah, applies for everything political in Malaysia. =D

Ken

Sometimes it's good to know, sometimes it isn't. The truth is at times kind of a hassle to deal with, but sometimes it is the thing you want to know most. Curiosity is indeed a killer, but at the end of it, sometimes it is worth dying for.

I don't know a lot of things, maybe it is meant for it to be that way, knowing too much could be a bad thing, and knowing just that little bit more could kill what's left of me. Oh well.

Two weeks has gone by like a blink of an eye, the clouds are shifting back to its original place. The sun is setting, pretty soon night time will fall, again.

I hadn't been able to do a lot of things I wanted to do this holidays, but no matter, venturing into more than what I can afford to take in could prove again, a killer.

Ken

"I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror,
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer,
But my breath fogged up the glass,
And so I drew a new face and I laughed,

I guess what I'd be saying is there ain't no better reason,
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the season,
It's what we aim to do,
Our name is our virtue ".

Ken

I'm addicted to I'm Yours at the moment. It's soothing, the melody and the way he sings it makes it all the better to listen to it.

It's like those kampung songs in a way, I think. But I don't really fancy kampung songs, however this one I like. Pfft.

MSN is making itself room into the computer again, lunch is downstairs awaiting my hungry stomach to munch on it.

I can't sleep last night, only out of tiredness due to staring at the TV screen and numb hands from messing around with the PS2 controller kept me away from staying nocturnal.

Maybe a trip to BR next door later would do me some good. I realize I'm quite a fool sometimes, oblivious to everything, then maybe I do deserve it.

Ken

Dreams sometimes come true, whether bad or good ones. Sometimes I don't know whether it's from a dream, or it's a memory, but de ja vu situations seem to happen more often than I thought they would.

If they were from dreams, then the scene is all too familiar, or maybe it is not. I wonder. Time has a mean way of telling stories sometimes, this could be one of it, but then it is not for me to decide whether it is. Worries, fear, and distorted imaginations haunt the feeble mind of mine like butterflies set free from their cages.

Today is sleeping day. I had tiramisu ice-cream, it didn't taste that bad. MSN is still not able to run for some reason. I've got a DVD player in the living room. Sleep is the last thing that is on my mind, or is it?

Ken

My MSN is buggy, I can't seem to sign in. Curse *inserts whoever who created MSN's name* for not helping.

Went out with baby to Mid Valley today. Found out we were short of cash to get a jigsaw puzzle set, sniffles. =/

The tiramisu flavour is on top of my chocolate ice cream in my pint of BR. This is so not good.

Ken

People say my blog is emo. But my blog isn't emo! Ish. Well, it used to be, but then don't say till that now also very emo laaa. Sniffles.

Anyways, last Thursday, the family had dinner at


Eest Restaurant, it's inside the Westin Hotel. Nice place, but very very expensive yo. Drinks itself cost us around RM400+. Pfft. And that also we brought our own champagne.



At least the table set was pretty. It had feather pillows too. =D


While waiting for everyone to come.


The champagne glasses. Like an army going to war, wtf.



My cousin took this shot, and it had the hot waitress in it. =D
She smiled at me okay when I was at the table! Too bad she didn't serve our table. Must go back again next time. =(


The kitchen, those red lights are damn hot.



Yes, the kitchen is like an open kitchen, everyone can see the chefs cook. And we had the head chef to cook for us, which I guess adds to the reason why the dinner was so expensive. =/


My uncle and my little cousin.



One of their signature dishes. It doesn't seem too appealing and it seems like carrot juice, but it tasted like heaven. It's lobster meat, crab meat, soup and the mee. =D


Some weird eye ball thingy in the hotel.



My shoes are glowing. =D



My aunt's birthday cake, the occasion why we are here for dinner. =)

She's the vice prez of the Olympic Council of Malaysia, the reason why me and my cousins get free VIP passes to any sports event in Malaysia hehehehehe.



And last but not least, family photo with some guests of course, I wasn't looking the wrong way okay, there were two cameras. =P




"There's never a wish better than this, when you've only got a 100years to live".