Aaaaaaaa

Ohmigosh.

I've got exams tomorrow~!

Lolz. Funny how it seems I'm still here waiting for the server to be up to dota again. Wtf.

Damn, I've gotta study~!

Tsk tsk, well it wouldn't be nice if I didn't end the month without a post right?

Hmm, for the next week I've got exams. Huhu, sadly.

Yeah, damn lame, 2nd trial exams. First time hearing it? Well, that's coz your school doesn't have a principal who thinks that gerak gempur is useless.

Hmm, what else. Think I'm just gonna go to school, sleep during the papers and then play Blackjack after that. >=D

Oh yea, Png Porn Pray, you owe me friggin RM 418,000.

Damn you man, simply bet but don't pay. Loser.

Aaaaaa, someone please guide me to study.

Need to study la, sighs, but but... I can't. Don't ask me why coz' I myself don't know.


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MF

Today is MF day.

Lolz, Mooncake Festival la.

Hmm, just wanna wish everyone Happy Mooncake Festival aites.

That's about it I guess. =D


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Bloggie Status

Aites, listen up kay.

My bloggie will be on hiatus status from today onwards.

The time span is indefinite as of now, so whatever lah.

Hmm, guess that's about it, happy whatever thingy you're up to and thanks for reading all this while. >=D

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Could It Be?

I find myself in this predicament again.

Funny isn't it?

I guess the only thing possible of knowing that what has happened over these past few days is that everything happens for a reason.

I guess things has always been this way, and will never change.

Despite that, I feel sorry for what's happened.

But I can't blame anyone, for it was foreseen that this would happen and of course, with a lil' spice of hypocricy, it's just funny how much you could see several diamonds at a time.

So, I'm stuck again in this circle.

Though I've not always thought it would stay this way for long, but I guess it's better this way.
Qwer.


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I Wonder

Sometimes I wonder, whether is it a necessity to love someone and to be loved.

Whether sometimes is it a must, and the vitality of longing somewhere.

Countless times I feel that I long to be loved, even despite the fact that baybe was here for the past couple of years.

Maybe I was too pampered, or I took her presence for granted.

Coz' now I wonder, how true is all this when the things you do doesn't justify anything that you say. I just couldn't come to comprehend what is going on at times.

I wonder, am I in a dream? Am I facing this reality like an absurd, ignorant vagabond?

There's no point in me saying anything now, coz' whatever it is, it isn't how it used to be.

I wonder if this is going anywhere, or we're stuck at where we started, or I wonder, did we even take a step outside of these 4 walls or not.

I hate wondering and pondering upon things, for they never lead me anywhere and tend to bring me astray.

But sometimes I just can't help myself when you do these kind of things.

It really makes me wonder, what kind of person are you?

If everything and everyone means that much to you, then what am I to you? Probably just another puppet on your wall, I wonder? Hmm.

Coz' I can never see what is going on, for you never talk to me about these things.

And even if you do, it always ends up hurting me that little more than it did the last time.

And so I wonder, how much more of this I can take.

Seriously, what or who am I to you?

I wonder, if things will change. I wonder, if maybe one day someone might actually love me as the likeliness of baybe for the past 3years. I wonder, if you would ever know how I feel when this happens one too many times.

In truthful fact, I wonder if you even read this. But I don't bother.

I just don't understand some people's actions, they can be hurtful, distorting, and even unbelievable at times.

Well, it's not easy to understand people. You may think you've known that person for your whole life, but they'll never tend to surprise you with actions you never thought could even suffice in their minds.

Those actions that hurt you so much, that you would even question their sincerity behind all those years of everything.

I wonder, how do people live these kinda lives?

I really admire them, for they can put on several masks when dealing with several people.

It's just so amazing what they can do and how they can lie to you straight in your face and come back and tell you that what he said was true.

Tsk tsk, I've been hurt uncountable times by people whom I think I could place my trust on, guess I was wrong.

But now I know that, those people are ones I cannot trust, and despite the fact of what they did to me, I still wonder am I a fool to still talk with them everyday of my life?

Despite that, I shall be the one who gives in, be the modest one and definitely not stir up any sort of unwanted attention.

For despite what all of you had done to me, I had never uttered a word to the people who eventually are gonna end up like me after they know you people long enough.

Why? Because I'm not that sadistic of a person, I don't go around screwing up people's lives and relationships like what you people did to me.

Although after what you did to me is uncomprehendable by most standards, but I feel that there's a time where you would change, all of you.

And although after what you people did to me, other people who don't know the truth behind all this come and tell me what great human beings you people are and sometimes even take pity on you all when you all put on your masks to draw attention to people.

Hypocrites, I wonder, how long can you people live this way?

Is there no feeling of guilt on what you people do everyday?

Or maybe the satisfaction of getting things done your way just defeats all other feelings within you?

I seriously wonder.

Sighs, one moment when I see you people, you're all smiling and laughing. The next when I'm talking to someone else, they tell me that you people are extremely depressed and sad.

It makes me sick to look at you people and how you infect their lives with hypocricy.

I just can't believe that you people would even resort to something this low to get someone to like you, or to get attention, or just for the sake of wanting other people to be close to you.

It's just sickening.

I wonder, do I really deserve all this kinda crap?

I wonder, why do I still associate with these bastards and bitches whom I see every single day of my friggin' life?

I wonder, will one day anyone ever know the truth behind those masks, or will I just be the only one?

But even if I am, I will never speak of it, for the more that I do, the deeper these wounds are gonna get, for there's too much hypocricy goin' around.

I wonder, how do you do things like you do now and tell someone else that you're feeling otherwise?

Baybe,

I wonder, will I ever get to see you again?

I wonder, will anyone love me like the way you did?

Sighs, I wonder, do I even deserve to be loved at all?



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Teddy Tales

What a distorted night yesterday.

It was CPB ( Corrupted Prefectorial Buggers ) annual dinner or some call it "Dinner Night".

Firstly, the theme sucked, coz' it was Night Life, and guess what, it had to be FORMAL and NO JEANS.

Ended up with me wearing white Nike shoes which made me look so lame, but nvm, I'm me, so guess not many people would be saying much about it.

Then right, went there and the food basically sucked, A LOT.

Hmm, what else, oh yeah.

The night was practically overshadowed by the loss of something precious to me.

I spent almost 3hours finding it.

It was a teddy bear, strapped to my phone, I placed it outside with the string strap of my pocket.

Sighs, knew I should've just keep it in my pocket.

Then little did I know, it went missing.

It came off the strap, as in the teddy bear came off.

Looked almost everywhere in the hotel, but there was not even the closest to a sign to where it was.

Sighs, even tried to retrace my steps back to Times Square but to no avail.

I'm sorry for losing it.

I wish that I could do more within my reach to recover it from it's missing identity now.

Arrgghh. This sucks.


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Recent Movies

Well, since I've got nothing better to do, I'll just recap on the movies I thought that were rather mind-boggling, extraordinary, comedy-filled, outstanding and very very the interesting that I've watched so far.

* The Invasion | Seriously cool shit man. Nicole Kidman was great too, as in her acting was =D

* Transformers | Need I say more? XD

* Rush Hour 3 | Is it Yu or Mi? Rofl =P

* Spiderman 3 | Ending sucks though =/

* Ratatouille | Can rats get any cuter? =D

* Pirates of the Caribbean 3 | Wasn't what I expected, but still was good

* Ghost Rider | Cool and rather disturbing at the same time

* Wild Hogs | Gosh, funny shit, no doubt =)

* Shrek 3 | Funny, and unpredictable but sort of weird too

* Ocean's 13 | I'll see you when I see you =D

* Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix | Okay, not too bad I guess


Oh gosh. 11 movies only? @_@

I'm seriously getting more lifeless.

Hmm, and here are some which I haven't but must watch when I have the time.


* 300
* Fantastic Four 2
* The Simpsons Movie
* Blades of Glory
* Disturbia
* Evan Almighty
* I Now Pronounce You Chuck and Larry
* Mr. Bean's Holiday
* The Bourne Ultimatum
* Resident Evil 3
* The Golden Compass
* National Treasure 2
* AVP 2



Aaaa... I'm stoned now. Lolz. Aites. That's it for this post.

Damn random man. @_@


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Betting Maybe?

Well, I mentioned that betting isn't the way to go several days back.

But today, it was rather the opposite.

Though, it wasn't my money at stake today, but it was Jun Lin's.

Hmm, wasn't that bad to begin with lor, he was like up by RM20.

So then I played for him since then and ended up he won RM 700+ . @_@

Gila-ness.

Suggested myself to go Genting tonight, but think I'll save that for another night. Hehe.

Ironically, I still haven't post up the interview, Ryan. =P

Hmm, what else, didn't do much other than that, except skipping lectures and getting my leg injured due to excessive basketball again.

I'm seriously stoned.

Aites, that's all for today folks. Nitie nitez people. =D


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Pudgy Wudgy ll !

Enjoy. =)

Betting Isn't the Way to Go

Craps, I've just lost a bet.

Not just any bet, but a rather sort of high stakes bet.

Okay okay, let me state what the bet was for first.

Well, it was about football.

For some stupid reason, we bet on the Scottish League.

It was the game between Hearts vs Rangers.

Rangers were topping the group and it was obvious they were gonna win, and since he didn't knew much about that he took Hearts coz' he said the name was damn yeng. @_@

Turns out, Rangers lost. T_T
Damn wtf rite.

Stupid bet it was. Rangers lost 4-2 some more. Damn wtf wtf wtf wtf !!!!

Before the match ended, we tried to decide on what the winner of the bet would get.

First, he wanted money, I objected.
Then, I wanted more money, he declined.
Then, he wanted like those kind of interview shit where you must tell the truth, sorta like truth or dare but there is no dare. I put some thought into it and declined, but then hor, I really wanted to know whether *coughs* you know la *coughs* with bla bla or not.

So then hor, after several more stupid ideas including posting a picture nude on the net ( obviously his stupid lame idea ).

We finally came back to where we sorta started about the interview thingy.

Somehow I don't know why I abide to it despite knowing that Rangers were down 2-0 at half-time. @_@

So now, I lost the bet. And yes, it's to you, my great great Lord, you damned fool Ryan !

I'll make sure I'll ask you back the same questions you're gonna ask me, and despite it being 10 questions, you are so gonna die !

Pfft, this sucks.

Don't bet people, it kills.


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Whirlpool

No idea why I named this post this.

Anyways, wasn't such a bad day today. Played the hell out of myself in basketball and then to realize that none of my friends could actually keep up with the pace of the game.

Babis, wanted to play full court a lot longer but you all damn fast pancit.

Oh yeah, I got 6A's only this term. Huhu.

Rather disappointing but I'm quite happy with this average performance on a count that I didn't read anything this term.

Hmm, what else, what else.

Oh yeah, I just realized hor...That my...That my...Nvm, I'll save it for last.

Hmm, and yeah, on the way back I drank Coca-Cola till I was sick. @_@

Too much intake I guess, I mean like 2cups straight. Damn wtf man.

I'm feeling stoned, reached back at 4pm today, wasn't feeling too well and wasn't really having a good mood for certain reasons.

So, so, I decided to...

Cancel tuition ! Wakaka. @_@

Omg, what's wrong with me lately?
Where's a guardian angel when you need one?

Hmmm, was wondering anyway.

Have you people ever got sucked into a whirlpool before?

Well, if you haven't, I can tell you it sucks.

Why?

Coz' hor, the more you get sucked in hor, the deeper you get into it hor, the more hurtful it gets.

*coughs* Use your mind to relate the whirlpool. *coughs*

Hmm, guess that's about it.

Oh yeah, almost forgot, the thing I was supposed to mentioned.

Jeng jeng jeng jeng.

To top the day off, my...my phone...Received 0 messages today!

Woots. First time this has happened for like 5months?

Note, 0 messages, no typos.

That's all folks. Ciaoz.


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Screwed Up Day

Sighs, today's really a stoned and screwed up day.

First, didn't really had quite impressive Bio marks.

On the contrary, rather low. 9/60 T_T

Anyways, the brighter side of things, I've got 6A's this term. Hoho. =D

Then hor, something shitty happened. I..I...got a blister while playing basketball !

Damn wtf man.

Sighs, whatever la.

And some more hor, the blister broke and I didn't even know, eh correction, not broke, but burst. Rofl.

Hmm, then hor, my EST only got 85%. Seriously WTF man.

Thanks to stupid alphabets, I lost 7marks. DAMN YOU ALPHABETS !

And yeah, I got to know something which might as well I shouldn't have known, but I guess it's better to know.

That something rite, is...is... upsetting and quite saddening, but hey, anything related to that is not in this blog. It's all in neonie's one now. =P

Omg, I feel stoned again. Sighs.

Time to go to my bed and retire myself there again. Lalala.
Ciaoz.


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Neonie !

Okay, Neonie has opened a new blog, for the other side of me.

Hehe. It's http://neonie.blogspot.com/ .

Toodles.


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Eeee

Well, I guess you know me a lot by now, and I'm sure I know you quite well too.
We talk to each other just fine, and we make each other laugh everytime we see each other.

We can talk for hours and embrace one another's presence for longer than what we thought would be.

It's funny how we met, but it's funnier how we got here to where we are today.
Although it doesn't seem like a long time, but I've come to know you so much more in these past few months.

It seems rather weird, but at the same time it all seems so fitting.
May it be where we are right now, I hope we can continue this.

And hopefully in time, when the right moment and the right time comes, we both might find each other to be more than where we are now.

I'm pretty sure you'll never read this, but if you do, I hope you know what I'm trying to say.
But most likely you won't, coz' hardly anyone ever will read it anyway.

Eeee...Just scribbles of mine here. *yawns* I'm sleepy, and it's only 10.40pm.

Oh well, whatever. *dives to the bed and cuddles the cat* Lalala, nites' people. =)


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* <3 *

So I might have made a few mistakes, but that was back when you would smile,
We would go everywhere, but we ain't been there for a while,
And this I know,
There's a place that we can go,
A place where I can finally let you know..
Coz' I'm the one that loves you lately...


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Whatever

It's 4.15am now.

I'm practically the only one awake now, well except for Ryan whom I'm talking to now.
I feel stoned, lost, and sorta disfunctional in a way.

Rofl, I don't even know what I'm doing here.
Hmm, this is seriously stone.

Oh noes, I just remembered. I have to charge my i-Pod. Ish. How forgetful. 4am only can remember, wth wth.

Okays, I don't know what I'm doing, seriously.

So, I guess it's better that I...



Go watch tv now. kthxbai =P

Hmmm

Having some technical difficulties to set it to private due to some people not being able to access without blogger accounts. Wth wth man. Zzz.

Will figure this out as soon as I can kay.

Till then, toodles.

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