Blog Status

Okay, I think I'm gonna make my blog private as soon as I figured out the settings.

If you still wanna read, either IM me your e-mail on MSN or talk to me personally.

Ciaoz.

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Merdeka!

This is like the saddest yet happiest yet most boring yet most fun merdeka I've ever had.

I'm eating 2 boxes of chocolates and blasting my speakers to like 4/5 of it?

And yeah, with love songs that I stated in my previous posts.

Think I'm gonna be deaf soon, oh well. Life's too short to be wasted on noise pollution, so better enjoy it now.

Anyways, happy 50th merdeka Malaysia =)

Hope you won't be as sad as I am. After all, there's no point having friends if they don't help you right?

P.s. : If you're looking for me, please don't message or call my phone. I've restricted them all. If you wanna contact me, try MSN, if I'm not around, sorry.
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Zzzz

Omg, today really hyper-posting.

Prolly coz' I've got nothing to do.

Hmm, anyways, this brings back old memories.



" You can hardly wait to tell all your friends how his kisses taste sweet like wine,
And how he always makes your heart skip a beat everytime he walks by,
And if you're feeling down, he'll pick you up and hold you close when you're making love,
He's everything you've been dreaming of,

You probably spend hours on the phone,
Talking bout' nothing at all,
It doesn't matter what the conversation,
Just as long as he called,
Lost in a love so real and so sincere,
You wipe away each other's tears,
Your face lights up whenever he appears,

I'd wish you'd look at me that way,
Your beautiful eyes looking deep into mine,
Telling me more than any words could say,
But you don't even know I'm alive,
Baby to you, all I am is the invisible man. "


It has always been that way hasn't it?

I'm always just another booty call.

Damn it, that sounds so girlish. Ish. =/


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You Sure?

" I'll be there for you, when the rain starts to pour ".

Familiar phrase?

Well, that's what you, you, you, and you and you used to tell me.

So where are you?

And yeah, something interesting wei.

My MSN !

Contacts : 163
Bros : 3
Buddies : 13
Buddies II : 7
Friends : 86
Fuckers : 32
Bitches : 12
Unknown : 10


And yeah, the average of online people a day?
Hmm, some 30-40?
That's like 1/4.
Gosh, pathetic.

But that's maybe coz' 32+12 people are blocked already.

Hmmm, and I wonder. I don't speak to gals anymore.

Omg, I'm GAY !

Hohoho.


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Qwer

Everytime I experience this, I think back on how baybe used to be here.

How she'd always calm me down and comfort me.

But now she's gone.

And when I go through this, I see how imperfect my life is now and how perfect it used to be.

Why the heck must you go, baybe?

Nobody can ever take your place baybe. Wanna know why?

Coz' nobody else will ever understand the true meaning of compassion, love, understanding, and loyalty.

Screw life. No point going over something that will never work out at the end. Weee....


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Iris

Well, I'm naming the post Iris coz' I'm listening to Goo Goo Dolls' song. Ah, such a sweet song, yet sad at the same time. =(

Anyways, I don't know why but I seem to be singing wherever I go now.
But I don't seem to be singing for fun.

More like sing when I'm like alone and like damn moody.

Yes, moody.

Somehow my heart just wants to sing songs like Why Don't You and I, No Promises, Caught in the Middle, Like A Rose, Iris, Always, and those emotionally detached songs.

Weird, ain't it?

And kind to think of it, it's amazing how I can surprise myself with the relative theories and assumptions I have developed over the people around me.

How I wish I was wrong, but I couldn't.

Well, I guess my guess is as good as your guess but certainly was more accurate than your guess for you guess that I guess that you guessed that I would have never guessed it, but I did.

Sighs, why am I such a fool to be deceived twice by my judgement knowing that I should have just trusted what I believed in all along?

I know it could work out, but not right now. I think I <3 you too much that I fear of losing you when I'm with you.

But if it isn't meant to be, I understand for I shall not be forceful in this issue.

Emo times are back people ! Hohoho.

But who cares, I'll still try my best to put a smile on my face kay. =)

Though in my heart ='(

Whatever.

Iris. Cheers.

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Complicated Heart

I fall for people who will fall for me when I can't fall for them but will fall for someone else who won't fall for them but for some other person whom will fall for me but will never fall for them who falls for me which I don't fall for because I fell for someone who once fell for me and now fell for someone else.

Complicated?

Welcome to my life.

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It's Just Me

If everything's made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am.

I can't force things, I can't change things, I certainly can't change you, and I certainly can't be you.

Everything I do, every word I say, reflects what I speak in my heart.

But now I just feel that my heart just outplayed itself this time.

I wouldn't think that it was you, coz' you knew what you wanted right from the start.

At times I feel helpless, where I can't do anything, and you're slipping away.

I know it hurts, but I can only hope for the best and if you slip away, I just have to get over it.

I know I may not be the perfect fit to your jigsaw puzzle, but certainly, I hope I can just be part of it, even if it's just the corner or the spare part.

I know I will never be able to decide what's best for you, and for me, but now, I guess I just have to let things be.

All I can do is hope for everything to turn out right, and that you would not be deeply affected by my ever increasing absence.

But I doubt you would be, for you're someone who lives by the moment and someone whom people cherish and long for.

Thus, I need not have to worry about you being lonely, for you never are and I guess, never will be.

And yet again, I was over-dependent on the people around me. Once they're gone or about to be, here I am finding myself back at square one.

Who could blame you? I certainly can't. Coz' you're just being yourself, nothing more than that. And it is I, the foolish one yet again, to have thought that it was all going to turn out well.

Guess I'll never trust that part of judgement of mine ever again, for it has let me down one time too many.

I will never understand you fully, but one thing's for sure, I'll be happy as long as you are, no matter where I stand or where I fit in your life.

I used to place a <3 on your name, but I guess I didn't deserve that much.

To be honest, I didn't deserve anything close to this. For I am a nobody, a vagabond and certainly a person who doesn't deserve much of what I should have.

For all I deserve is to retire myself into the dark corner and wait for the time on Earth to pass by and hopefully just give me a small glimpse of what I don't deserve having.

I've been selfish, but now I realize I can never have all that's good in this world.

Coz' the best of people don't have the best of everything, they make the best of everything that comes along their way.

So, I cannot be selfish just to keep these thoughts to myself and to imprison you with me, for if you are happier elsewhere, then I shall take what's left of me and hope to be happy for you too.

And sometimes I wonder, is it just me?

Well, I certainly think so.

Am I gonna be emo about this?

Of course I am, but hey, I've been in lower grounds before.

Sighs NeOnie, are you ever going to find your half of the puzzle?

Hmm, I doubt that. =/


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Pudgy Wudgy !

Hehehe, something interesting for you people. =D

Ironic, isn't it?

Guy says :


So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie that you keep inside,
This is not how you want it to be.

So baby I will wait for you,
Cause' I don't know what else I can do,
Don't tell me I ran out of time,
If it takes the rest of my life,
Baby I will wait for you,
If you think I find it just ain't true,
I really need you in my life,
No matter what I have to do,
I'll wait for you.




Girl says :


Feel something happening,
Could this be a spark?
To satisfy me baby,
You gotta satisfy my heart.

Do you know how to touch a girl?
If you want me so much,
First I have to know,
Are you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what's on my mind?
Or am I just for show?
You'll go far in this world,
If you know how to touch a girl.



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Sounds familiar?
Ahhh, the irony. Geez.


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Why Don't You And I

Please spare a moment to read and understand the lyrics of the song. Seriously.
It's worth the read, and you'll know what I feel. =)



Since the moment I spotted you,
I've been walking round with little wings on my shoes,
My stomach's filled with the butterflies,
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud,
I've got the feeling like I'm never gonna come down,
If I said I didn't like you then you know I lied.

Everytime I try to talk to you,
I get tongue-tied,
Turns out everything I say to you,
Comes out wrong and never comes out right.

When's this fever gonna break?
I think I've handled more than any man can take,
I'm like a love sick puppy chasing you around,
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud,
I've got the feeling like I'm never gonna come down,
If I said I didn't like you then you know I lied.

Slowly I begin to realize this is never gonna end,
Right about the same time you walk by,
And I say "Oh here we go again",
Everytime I try to talk to you,
I get tongue-tied,
Turns out everything I say to you,
Comes out wrong and never comes out right.

So I'll say why don't you and I get together,
And take on the world and be together forever,
Heads we will and tails we'll try again,
So I say why don't you and I hold each other,
And fly to the moon and straight on to heaven,
Cause' without you they're never gonna let me in.


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No Idea

I'm clueless.

I'm lost.

Where do I stand?

What am I feeling?

Is everything all this while something, or as good as nothing?

Do you feel the same way?

Do you want what I want?

Do you see in me what I see in you?

Why is love so intricate?

Why am I asking this?

Sighs, I'm such a girl in relationships. T_T

NEONIE ! LOL.

@_@

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How Long?

Am I wasting my time?
Is it worth it?
Am I who I think I am?

Sighs, can someone answer me?

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WTF !!

OMG !

It's 60minutes now. We're down 1-0. Wtf wtf.

3 games played :

1 goal scored
2 goals conceded
0 wins


Wtf is this man. Zzz.





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Random Stuff ll

More random stuff. This time a game where the score was more than flattering.

55-0.
Lol.

Random Stuff

Here's something to keep the few of you reading busy while I don't update for several days.
Rofl.

First vid is Gondar, 21-3.
Second vid is Priestess of the Moon, 19-0.

Enjoy.

When You're In Love

" Beauty lies in the hands of the beholder ".

" You never listen to what other people tell, or say to you, other than the person that you fall for ".

" A third person's perspective is sometimes better than what you see, because it is observed from the outside of things ".

" Nothing good ever comes out from the term 'We need to talk' ".



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A Fairytale

How I'd wish I'm in a fairytale right now.

Where happy endings are always bound to happen, where everything will go your way at the end no matter what you do.

Sighs, apparently, life's nothing compared to a fairytale. Life isn't that perfect, that beautiful. Life is like a never-ending story, why? Because there is no happy endings, there is no once upon a time. It happens right now, flashing right in front of you.

At times, I wonder about the people around me, and I say to myself, am I lucky? Should I be thankful? I just don't know.

The people I want close to me, never are close to me but the people I never want close to me, will tend to want to be close to me.

It's just weird. Saddening at the same time. But heck, that's life.

When I like that someone, that someone doesn't always like me back, and when I don't really like that someone anymore, that someone will start to like me.

And when I don't really like that someone, that someone likes me, and when that someone doesn't really like me no more, I tend to like that person more than before.

Tsk tsk. I shouldn't complain and rant here. Or should I?

Well, I mean things never go the way I want them to go. Although I make the most of it, I'm never happy with the outcome of things.

Love is such an intricate thing. When you're in love, you tend to forget about everything else, sometimes even the people around you.

No idea why but it's so hard for people to love me and for me to love them back, and that is why my life is that bit much sad compared to everyone else.

I can never understand why I never fall for certain girls who get close to me, but when they stop to adhere themselves to me, I always tend to fall that little more for them.

Maybe that's why my love life sucks now. What 1 actual girlfriend since form 2? Sad right.

But maybe it's because that relationship lasted for 3years. But hey, still, it's sad.

Sigh. But when I like that girl, sometimes I just couldn't. Like the times when I was with my ex, I repelled myself from loving another girl, despite the fact that I felt that something was going on.

But even so, I managed to seperate my relationship from boy-girl friendship.

Even now, after breaking up, it's like de ja vu.

I can find girls whom I'm comfortable being with, but they'd never want to be with me, heck, actually no girl would want to be with me besides my ex.

Close friends, maybe. But girlfriend boyfriend, uggh, they'd never want to.

My lack of sensitivity and attention could be the reason why, but deep down, my heart doesn't portray what's shown and only my ex has come to know that about me. Sad. Tsk tsk.

Everyone seems to be coupled nowadays. Feels so awkward being the lamp post most of the time now, but guess I have to get used to that.

Oh yeah, I saw a rainbow today. It was beautiful but there was only half of it, but still beautiful. Oh what am I saying, ish, so unrelated.

Anyways, there are times when I just wish things would go back like to the way it was last year. Where everything seemed so simple yet perfect. I didn't had to adhere my ex for her to like me, for she liked me for who I am.

Yes, she's rich, not that popular, pretty, amiable, elegant, but most importantly, she's never a bitch and always a humble and very very selfless person. That's what I like about her, because she never, and I mean never would just leave you there all by yourself, and she checks up on you from time to time to see whether you're okay.

Yeah, I used to be on the phone quite a lot last time with her. Like 3-4 times a day and around an hour or so each time. Now, my phone seldom beeps, even when it does, I don't know, it just doesn't feel right.

Where have all the good times gone? Sighs. Is my life ever going to be a fairytale? =/



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Bad Day Much?

Omg, 0-0 at home.

1-1 away.

What next? Sigh.


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Fooled

I've been deceived, I've been cheated, I've been fooled.

Yes, the feelings I felt was just left unattended, unnoticed, uncared for.

But hey, that's life, sometimes you meet real nice people and sometimes you just meet plain bitchy manipulative people.

Guess it wasn't my luck when I bumped into you.

It sure did waste 3 months of my life.

And guess what, my English essay had to end with "Behind those good looks was the most evil person I have ever known !".

So, I decided to write about you. I guess that settles it, doesn't it?

I mean with that done, I shall leave this chapter of my life behind. Sure, you played me and my feelings, but I won't get back at you for I feel it is wrong to do so.

You made me do things I never do for other people, but I guess you never took the time to notice it. Or maybe you did, but you're just as ignorant and manipulative as you truly are.

Whatever it is, I shall not speak about it anymore. I have gone through enough of the Hell that you put me through. Thanks for nothing, and thank you for fooling me with your hoaxes and lies.


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Fail ?

Well, I haven't failed any of my subjects since I started schooling. Even back in primary, have not failed but there were close shaves of course.

Hmm, this term Add Maths I have no idea how. I watched CSI all the way till 3am yesterday before sleeping without touching my Add Maths. Sighs.

But with some "luck", I somehow managed to answer numerous number of questions, and hopefully I'll pass. Hehe.

Anyways, I just woke up from a 3 and a half hour nap, and tomorrow's History. I'm so doomed again.

What is this world becoming into?


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I'm So Doomed

Okay, tomorrow is my Add Maths paper.

And yeah, remember those stuff I said I will cover. Well, I haven't started covering them.

I'm so doomed. Somebody help me. Sigh.

Why am I such an indolent person? =/


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Ken and the Sorceress' Stone

Current Mood : Sleepy =/
Time : 6.00pm
Current Songs : Michael Learns to Rock - Paint My Love
Goo Goo Dolls - Iris
Quote of the Day : "But you don't even know I'm alive, baby to you all I am is the invisible man".



Darn, I'm really feeling sleepy. No idea why. Sigh, I haven't read anything yet today.

Haven't touch History nor Add Maths. So doomed tomorrow.

Anyways, I have come to a conclusion on what to study for Add Maths. I will never do all for it would be a waste of time. So I have set my goal, which is to achieve a possible 60 marks. How?

By covering the following subtopics. Muahaha.


*Functions ( Inverse and Composite )
*Quadratic Functions ( Graph and Range )
*Coordinate Geometry ( Distance and Equation )
*Vectors
*Progression
*Differentiation ( Max. and min. value, and rate of change )
*Circles ( Area, length )
*Probability
*Binomial Distribution
*Statistics
*Drawings ( Line of best fit thingy, and linear inequality )
*Momentum thingy ( Velocity, displacement, acceleration )
*Index number ( just in case I get stuck with the momentum part )


Hmmm, so I guess studying 13 types of questions will be good enough for me. Yeah yeah, blame me for being lazy, but hey, this is the analysis I did on past year questions. So, the questions they ask all revolve around the same. Sue me for not studying Add Maths, but if you think twice, you'll realize that it's a waste of time !

Lolol. Don't say I corrupt you. Coz' I didn't. =P



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Notice Me

Here's a story of a boy,
Livin' in a lonely void,
I hid a note ; a secret crush,
A little girl who talks too much.

And I'm standin' in the crowd,
When you smile I check you out,
But you don't even know my name,
You're too busy chasing fame.

And I want you to know,
If you lose your way I won't let you go.

Got your head up in the clouds,
Tell me when you're coming down,
No I don't wanna sink your ship,
It's not about the scholarship.

And all the friends that follow you,
They tell things that just ain't true,
I'm the guy you never see,
I'm the one you really need.

Oh, don't get me wrong,
You better make your move before the moment's gone.

I'm not like the rest,
I just don't care if you're the best,
You see it's all the same to me,
You just be who you wanna be,
It's all the same to me.

Tell me,
If I cut my hair,
If I change my clothes would you notice me?
If I bite my lip,
If I say hello would you notice me?
Would you notice me?
Did you notice me?


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Tralalala

Current Mood : Tired =|
Time : 10.40pm
Current Songs : Clay Aiken - Invisible
Backstreet Boys - Shape of My Heart
Quote of the Day : "If hearts were unbreakable, then I could just tell you where I stand".



Today was a freakin' tiring day man. Woke up at like 8am after having just 5hours of sleep okay.
Sien sien. Had tuition that early. Ended about 11.30am.

Woah, I tell you, there's so much about Add Maths I can never be able to do. Lolol. And yet, Monday's paper is Add Maths. Hoho. I'm so doomed.

Then after that went to Leisure Mall at about 12.15pm with Sam. Went to watch Rush Hour 3. Woots.

The show was some funny shit man. Seriously. Was laughing from start till the end. Especially the part when Chris Tucker asked about the whole Mi and Yu. I couldn't stop laughing man.

The movie was nice, worth watching. Then we walked around the whole Leisure Mall before deciding to dine at Delifrance. Chit chat and talk till like 4.40pm I think. Hmm, then we went to Popular to get Sam some books and I needed to get a pen refill then after that jalan jalan talk talk then I had to go back coz got dinner.

So, reached back at about 6+ then I dropped my phone. @_@

It couldn't be turned on for like 20mins man. I was damn panic I tell you. Ish.

But luckily now okay, but the battery seems faulty. Sigh.

But nvm, luckily I went to the dinner. If not my mum would have deleted something I thought was gone.

My football video! Woots, looks like it wasn't gone after all. =P

Anyways, let me do a recap on some of the movies I missed. Got damn lots man.



*300
*Deathnote 2
*Mr.Bean
*The Simpsons ( I will watch this one way or another )
*Surf's Up
*Fantastic Four ( though I have it on the computer )


Omg, I'm so damn outdated. Somebody please teman me watch Simpsons. Huhu T_T



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NS !

Woots, no National Stupidity for me !

Eh, eh, typo. National Service !

Lolz. Wee, I'm so unlucky. =D


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Boring

Current Mood : Hungry >=(
Time : 9.25pm
Current Song : Elliot Yamin - Wait For You


Omg, I still haven't taken my dinner. Ish, the damn McFlurry.

Anyways, having Maths tomorrow and yeah, I haven't read a thing yet again.

I don't know what's wrong with me, I just keep neglecting all my studies and like avoid doing proper revisions by adjourning all my stuff.

Something is terribly wrong.

And I've got the whole Maths topics both form4 and 5 to cover man.

And I was like lost since variations or something like that. Don't know what's it called.

The part where got those directly proportional or something. I don't know. I'm lost.

Qwer...

Hmm, think I'll go for a game of DotA later after taking my light dinner. Then, maybe, just maybe, I'll flip pages till I sleep.

Oh, how I love my "intricate" life.

Oh yea, I just realized that I haven't been posting pictures up lately. Hoho.


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Peculiar Day

Current mood : Unknown =/
Time : 7.50pm
Current Song : Bon Jovi - Always
Quote for Today : "Wei, apa kau buat ni? Aku dengan dia la".


Today was rather a peculiar day. I did my English and yes again, my essay didn't have enough time. Sighs. Too much to write, too little time.

Guess I gotta start flaunting my language and start cutting down on the story line and plot.

And yeah, I wrote like 3 pages on the novel and I ran out of pages and so I requested for one more.

To my dismay, Madam Ng said that I could only answer on the given answer sheet and I was like stoned.

But thankfully, being the kind and generous teacher that she is (c'mon, I visit her during CNY okay), she gave me an extra paper and a paper clip, and not just those ordinary paper clips okay, it's the black one, the nice one. Lol.

So, I could only do 4 pages when I needed more, so I guess it won't be as great as I thought it would be, but nevermind.

Anyways, I just came back from Leisure Mall after picking up the camera.

And what a sad day, the video I took of myself juggling 128 times with a volleyball, IT IS GONE!

Stupid man I tell you. Sighs.

Just finish eating McFlurry, full like hell now. No idea on how I'm gonna take my dinner.



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English Practice cum Third Party

Well, I've got some things to say out here. So, I'll treat this as part of my preparation for tomorrow's exam too. =D

And I'm eating cereal too now. Haha.

Okay, back to the post.


Apparently, they say a third party's point of view or a third party's look on things is a view that many say the "correct" and "appropriate" and "best" view on things.

Well, to say the least, I somehow agree with that.

Because a third party's view is a view concealed among the two person involved but certainly it is the most vivid view when compared to the two parties involved.

What seems to be so intricate but when observed from a different perspective, it all seems so simple and clear.

From the outside, I was certainly deceived by the amiable looks, the concealed beauty, and the bona fide inner essence that you adhere. But when I was finally and surreptitiously told, I realize beauty is only skin deep and that all that glitters is not gold. For you are a femme fatale whom only does whatever that appeases you.

Now I know that you should not hitch your wagon to a star, for one must sow the wind and reap the whirlwind.

I used to treat you as a persona nongrata in my life, but the apathetic shoulder that you gave me was as cold as ice and certainly it was a destitute way to neglect one person. But to come to know the obstinate and diabolic person that you are, I knew it was unthinkable for me to be with you.

Your movements were as graceful as a swan, and as cunning as a fox but you shattered my heart which was as brittle as glass when I came to find out that all you were, was just a hoax and a conceited bitch who couldn't care less except her own modus vivendi.

I also came to know that a leopard cannot change its spots and I guess we should just let bygones be bygones, shouldn't we?

Despite your eminent and immaculate cover, the feelings and the truth that's concealed in your heart was vivid to me the moment I started being an indolent minuscule to you.

I first thought there was no remedy to this ailment, but I hindered myself from thinking about that and finally I have come to comprehend that there is no point crying over spilt milk.

For every cloud has a silver lining, and time and tide wait for no man.

Thus, I have to move on. Your tender touch, the ever bashful side of yours, and the dilemma that you put me through, is something I will remember you for. But certainly, I shall not be adhered to you as you are as obstinate as a mule for you do not seem to care about the people who really sees you for who you are.

You made my legs feeble and you made my heart robust when I'm with you, but now after what I know, I just feel like an absurd idiot and a toy to you. Now I know that fools rush in where angels fear to tread.

But I guess that's life, you live and learn from all the negligence and inquistiveness. For the time you learn is the time when you're down.


"Why do we fall? So that we can learn to pick ourselves up".


I have now abdicated all my feelings for you. As I know, the more I adhere around, the more painful this arrow that buries itself through my crest will be.

The sumptuous moments of togetherness, the amiable times we had together, all has gone down the drain and shall be forgotten with the passing of the wind.

I thank the people whom told me about this "Third Party" thing, for this really is a stitch in time saves nine.

I guess I couldn't expect much from relationships, as you can't make a silk purse out of a sow's ear.

Love is an intricate thing and certainly as ancient as the stars. Unknown, untouched, unfamiliar, and by all means, unbelievable.

The eminent feeling of experiencing love is such a bewildering thing. For it just alters our modus vivendi and changes what we believe in.

I love you surreptitiously but that feeling is behind the concealed door of my heart now. For I have put that in the past and have vanquished that obscure and ambiguous feeling.

I know that I'm just a sheer minuscule and nothing more than an absurd soldier at your every command, but I guess things have changed now. For you are the absurd one. Why?

Because you have lost a person whom you think is a fool, a hypocrite, a bitch, a bastard, or even an asshole. But in truthful fact, you lost me, a person whom you will never come to comprehend like what my real friends do.

So, I'm not the loser here, for you are. You lost something precious, something not many people see in me. You lost my trust and everything there is about me towards you.

I feel tranquil now for I guess it is not my calamity that comes back to haunt me. As I know, my high school time has had everything, from destroying chairs and tables, to going on rooftops, from skipping classes, to eating in class, from having a girlfriend, to breaking up in the most miserable way. But one thing's for sure, high school ain't the highlight of my life.

Because if high school is the highest point in anyone's life, then that person has nothing much left to look forward to in life.

I guess that's all for English today.

Class dismissed. =P



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Through The Glass

"I'm looking at you through the glass, I don't know how much time has passed".


Well, I just woke up from my slumber wonderland and when I turned and gaze upon the rounded clock that was in front of me, I was stoned.

Haha, I saw the clock pointing 8pm !

I slept for 4 freaking hours man.

Omg, what is wrong with me?

Well, BM today was okay, but doubt I'll ever score high marks for it. Haha.

Hmm, tomorrow's English. Let me see what to revise.


* Essay vocabulary = Not ready
* Interesting phrases/Proverbs = Half-ready
* Summary = Not ready
* Literature = Not ready
* Novel = So not ready


Wee, guess I'm gonna just count on alloy again. =D




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Help !!!!

Omg, today I'm on hyper-posting here.

One of the things I do when I procrastinate my revision for BM tomorrow.

Omg omg. How wei?

I haven't read a thing ! @_@

How wei? How? Someone tell me. Omg.

I'm so dead. Lolz. Haihz, screw it la. Not like I'm gonna be scoring 1A for BM anyways.

Hmm, what else should I post here?

Oh yeah, quotes. QUOTES !

Lolz. Hmm. Let me think of one.


"The best step in life when wanting to make your dreams come true is to wake up and embrace it".


Am I ever going to read BM? Hmmm =/


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Is It Me?

Well, I noticed that most of the people around me struggle in Add Maths.

Apparently, I too only manage to fork out some rather destitute marks for my Add Maths.

But it seems like they're trying ever so hard. You know, doing those exercises and all.

But me? I'm sitting here and I haven't touched any Add Maths work since the last exam.

Hmm, am I in trouble?

I've adjourned my studying process for tomorrow's paper since 2p.m. today. Ish.

I just feel like abdicating studies and education. Feel like just enjoying the simple things in life.

Omg, I'm such an indolent person. Somebody help me.



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Trial Exams?

Well, my trials starts tomorrow.

Yes, SPM trials. Despite that, I haven't really read or revised any subjects properly.

Instead, it feels like I'm on holiday now.

I want to score well, but I don't wanna study. Don't make sense right?

Well, that's me. The obstinate spoiled brat who wants everything good in life but doesn't wanna work to get it.

I've been a really damn good procrastinator of my work (my EST book has not been handed in once this year and both my Moral and Add Maths projects were done on the last day). But, maybe it's because I take things like this too lightly.

Or am I just a jerk? A lazy, good for nothing piece of crap?

I don't know. Well, it's 6p.m. now. I'm off to Leisure Mall. Yeah yeah, still not studying, so what? Sue me.

Ciaoz.



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Ciao

Did you know?

The word "ciao" is from Italian origin. Rofl. Guess you knew that.

But if you hadn't visit Italy, you might not know that "ciao" has 2 meanings.

One is bye bye, or goodbye, the term we normally use.

Another is hello, but over here, we use words like "hey", "yo", "hihi", "hi", "hello", "top of the morning to ya", and bla bla bla.

I don't know why I'm posting this. Gosh, I've really got nothing better to do, and I haven't studied yet. @_@


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Ribena and Banana

It's 12.30a.m. now. Yes, that late.

I'm not going to school today I think. Ish, what's wrong with me?

It seems like holiday now. All I do is wake up late, watch tv, DotA, watch tv, update my blog and then sleep.

Has been like this for the last what, 8days?

Hmmm, my trials are tomorrow. Omg, tomorrow !

I'm so dead. Haven't opened a page on any of my books. Sigh. I'm doomed.

Why am I so obstinate? Why am I such an imbecile? Why am I such a lazy bugger?

Sometimes I wonder do I deserve the things in life that I have or used to have. But I can never be sure about that.

I am just like a vagabond whom knows nothing about this obscure world.

Sighs. Hope I can do well in my trials. Despite help from the alloy, I'm like only 10% prepared right now.


Have you ever tried drinking Ribena and eating a banana?

Well, let me tell you. It's damn filling. Yes, DAMN filling. >=(




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The Reason

I should be studying right now, or should I say, I should have started studying by now.

But I haven't. Tsk tsk.

Something is wrong with me. Yet, I don't know the reason.

Oh gosh, what is wrong?



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Kids These Days

Okay, if you click on the picture, it'll enlarge.

Kids these days. Taking up unhealthy habits of life. Tsk Tsk.

What a sad life.

Oh yeah, the name has been censored as a level of discrepancy and transparency must be maintained and upheld.

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Intricacy

Life is such an intricate thing, isn't it?

Well, here are some of its complications. See whether you can figure them out. If you do know, do let me know, because I certainly for one am unable to comprehend the following questions due to my inadequate and destitute knowledge.


Why do dogs chase cats and cats chase mice? In this scenario, does any animal chase dogs?

Why do we have 10 fingers and not more or less than that?

Why do people create doors which can be pulled or pushed when the sign only says "Push"/"Pull"?

Can ants ever be extinct one day?

Why are painters/artists nowadays not earning the same recognition as those in the olden days?

Why is it so interesting to gossip about celebrities? Aren't they normal people too? Do people really have CWS ( Celebrity Worship Syndrome ) ?

Why are potato chips canned straight up and not flat down across?

Why do we have fingernails?

Why are houses made like boxes instead of spheres or triangles?

Why do most boys like game toys while most girls like cooking and barbie dolls?

Why don't human have tails?

Does magic really do exist?

Are we born stupid or are we all the same?

Why are olden proverbs turned into books and proverbs you and I create are never going to be used by everyone else?

Why are Shakespear's poems so fascinating and mine are not?

Why are guys the ones who have to send flowers to girls and not vice versa?

Why are guys the ones who pay for dinner and girls don't?

Why are colours more interesting than black and white?

Why do we sleep lying down and not standing like a vampire in coffins?

Why do we have eyebrows?



Alright, that's all for this. I'll post more in the next post or something if I can think of any more.


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Magical Feet

Oh, finally ! Yes, FINALLY !

I've reached 100 goals in futsal ! =)

I had to wait 2 months as I couldn't find time to be on court to achieve this milestone.

But when I did set foot on court today, all Hell broke loose.

I scored 6goals, again, the most. =D

And yeah, I reached my 100th goal today. So, as it stands, it's 100 goals in 13 games. =)

Somehow I played extremely well today doing quite a number of fancy Ronaldo skills and of course it turned out well. But then my finishing was a quite poor and slacking today, well maybe that's because of the 2 months off the court.

But still topping the scoring sheets just goes to show that I still have my touch. Muahaha. =D

100 goals in 13 games man. It wasn't easy, certainly, but it was worth all the runs, the tackles, the slides and of course the shots that I took.

Too bad my camera is currently encountering problems and had to be sent to the Sony factory. Damn man, RM1600 are in their hands. Oh yea, too bad it had to be sent there.

If not I'll be able to upload a video of me juggling a volleyball, and jeng jeng jeng jeng, I reached 128 juggles. =D

Okay, that's all for this post. A milestone of greatness wouldn't be perfect without a quote, wouldn't it?


"A great man doesn't let an imbecile bring him down, but instead, he uses that imbecile to pick himself up".


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Forever and Eternity

My obstinate self just wouldn't let me think of any other name but to put this title for this post despite my brain conjuring several other titles for this post.

But FnE, could represent so many abbreviations. Feedback and Enquiry, Free and Easy, but it could also represent Forever and Eternity.

Oh, the ever sweet fragrance and scent of you passing by, just makes my heart want to adhere itself to you.

At times, your sly and cunning personality makes me wonder are you going to stick around for long or you're just gonna be gone like as quick as a nimble.

My bashful personality though begs to differ from what you may observe about my rowdiness and intricate outside. Yes, I am narcissistic and I am very conceited about myself at times, but I too have come to appreciate and admire your amiable, beautiful and eminent looks.

The agony you present to me at times was apathetic but I could not deny the fact that I myself couldn't find it in me to let you know what my heart was feeling.

Yes, I really felt that I wasn't adequate enough to adhere myself to you and it would have been rather absurd of me to do so.

I couldn't stop but loathe you, but yet, I loved you at the same time. But what I couldn't comprehend was what was going to happen if you too felt the same way. It certainly would appease me but the feeling would have been rather obscure and cold.

My inquistive and surreptitious personality made it even more hurting for me to know that you couldn't be bothered of my existence and that what I meant to you was nothing more than an insolent, negligent, obstinate, and absurd person in your life.

I knew it was difficult for me to alter the way things were made to be, but that did not hinder me nor did it halt me in my path to vanquish this concealed feeling I had for you.

I had adjourned many of my times to let you know what you mean to me, though I needed your abet, you often give me an alms which made my day much more vivid and clear than it was before. Be it in words, or just by heart, all my ambiguous feelings were gone and my feebleness was turned into robustness.

The tranquility that you bring to me, the ever so immaculate and shining incandescence that you have given to me, was the remedy that cured my ailment.

How I'd wish I could feel the same way as I did towards you before, but I couldn't. For we have moved on, the hoax and deceptions among each other, could now be indolent as we both are indolent as well.

I was never hastily in making decisions in my life, but this was something rather different and apparently, something rather unique in its own way. Thus, it wasn't in my powers to alter things as they are, but it was only in my powers and my will to just let things be as how they are made and meant to be in life.

My destitute and shallow and at times negligent knowings of love may seem to surprise you, but the fact is, I have always been that feeble in this aspect of life.

You were eminent in whatever you do and to me, you just seemed perfect and someone whom I could see myself to be with and never abdicate in the future.

But somehow, a part of me just tells me that despite your amiable and appealing appearance, it would be my misfortune and my calamity if I had chosen to be with you. For I would never know what lays ahead in this obscure and dark path.

For you are someone whom is still foreign and a mystery to me. For you are someone who can appease my heart, but at the same time shatter it into a million pieces.


"If a girl makes you suffer before you're even with her, then she's most probably not the one for you".


A quote which resembles quite a significant meaning which buries itself deep inside the grave of my heart. I'm no more than a sheer imbecile to you, a someone who you just use to appease your needs and throw away when you find that someone unneeded for.

I would have given you the world and so much more, if only I knew what you felt for me was nothing but pure and genuine love and affection without conditions, or should I say, unconditional love.

But too bad this fog of your conceited and self-imposed figure of yours has blinded me from my paths and from the vivid sky light which seized to exist at that time.

It brought me to a different path though, one less intricate and much more comprehended that the path that you forked out for me.

Yes, I'm an obstinate and absurd person in following this second path, but by all means, for choosing it will set me apart from you, then it's a path that I might come to love in the future.

But certainly, it's a lot better than being in a path I loathed for the longest time, and yet, you never knew. The only thing that could conjure in your mind when I was in that path was just nothing but sheer ridicule and an ignorant fool waiting to be disposed of.

I have...I have...Moved on.

I'm sorry for the late update for the day. Who am I talking about in that above post?

Well, actually, there's only one person who knows. Not sure if he's reading, but I'm sure he will be later on. If you are reading, you'll know who you are, and thanks for telling me to start this apathetic and ignorant war.

For it has ended now, and despite the indecisive triumph, I would gather what's left and build it up from there.


"I can't hate you anymore".



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Lost

I'm feeling lost right now. I don't know what to do.

My trials are next week. Yes, next week !

And my mentality is like "I've still got time".

I mean like 2years of studies to be cramped up into some what, 5days of revision? Possible?

Doubt it too. Sigh, what is wrong with me?

I don't feel worried. Yet, I don't know why. Who am I? How could I have come to this?

Sighs, it seems like yesterday when there were still 28days till trials and I was like so semangat-ed that I packed all my stuff in my room.

Now, it's a mess again. My heart is lost, my mind is lost.


" I built it up to watch it fall, like it meant nothing at all... "


Am I wrong to feel this way? If so, what should I feel?

Can someone tell me?

Ish, I'm suffering at the same time but I haven't started studying yet. What is wrong?

Guess I have been to caught up with my feelings maybe, but I myself am not sure.

And yeah, "sorry" for whining about this, and all my previous stuff. I know some of you would be thinking that I should be thankful for all that's happened for not many people has gone through what I did, but heck, I don't care.

It's my feelings, so if I whine, and you don't like it, don't listen to it then.

Alrite, guess that's about it.


"Tell me if it's worth saving me".

Pictures of My Heart

Pokemon ?

Okay, so I was lazing around in my room then suddenly I decided to just check out a few stuff around.

Guess what I found? =D

My old Pokemon cards. Rofl, yeah, it's worth quite a small fortune and certainly something I can include under a list of my mini-achievements. Hehe.

Here are some of the cards I got, they're picked at random though. Hmm.




Ho-oh. 3 attacks man. Woots.


Shining Gyarados. One in some 10,000 booster packs? XD



Birthday Pikachu !



Evolution #1 , Charmander



Evolution #2, Dark Charmeleon



Evolution #3, Dark Charizard



Evolution #1, Giovanni's Nidoran (F)




Evolution #2, Giovanni's Nidorina



Evolution #3, Giovanni's Nidoqueen



Mew <3
Articuno



Zapdos



Moltres



Ancient Mew ! Got like 10 of these...Muahaha..



Mew spam...



Eevee spam...



Dark Gyarados spam...



NeO version cards...


Here they are...







Well, that's all for this post. Weird, damn random post this is. Haha, alrite. Ciaoz.


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