Ken

Tagged by Zhi Wei.

1) Who is your all time inspiration?
The people I consider most dear to me, and the people I love. Hehe <3

2) Have you had a crush on me?
What kinda question is this!?!?!

3) If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you?
Someone who I think I can spend my life with, someone who can think of a way to get out of the island and someone who can entertain me with his/her silly remarks. =D

4) Where is the place that you wanna go to the most?
Italy! Spain! Yes, yes, I wanna go to Rome and Madrid again. =(

5) If you have one dream to come true, what would it be?
To love and be loved.

6) Do you believe in seeing rainbows after the rain?
I guess so, though I haven't been seeing one for a while now. =/

7) What are you afraid to lose the most now?
The people I hold dear to me.

8) If you win $1, what would u do?
What use is it here in Malaysia? = =

9) If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him or her??
I'll regret my whole life knowing that I didn't, but of course it has to come at the right time and the right moment. =)

10) List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
- Restless.
- Rash.
- The energy! (and of course "sa pao", hehe)

11) What are the other requirements that you wish for the other half?
As long as she's understanding and compassionate and loyal, I'll be more than happy, of course with the condition that she loves me, teehee. =)

12) Which type of person do u hate the most?
Get to know me better to know.

13) Highlight of the week?
Stone, stone and stone? Hmm, I guess reading back MSN conversation history was fun. =D

14) If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or you rather they keep quiet?
Sometimes I'd prefer them to point it out, sometimes the latter is better. =/

15) What do you think is the most important thing in life?
Love. Friendship is up there too. =)

16) Are u a shopaholic?
Neh, I don't consider myself to be one.

17) What's on your mind right now?
Everything that you don't know.

18) If you have a chance, which part of your character would u like to change?
Whatever I think needs a change.

19) What's the last shocking thing that you see or heard?
There are more Muslim's than Catholic's. Lol.

20) What's bothering you lately?
Myself, I guess I don't always look at the bright side of things. =/

I tag whoever who's in my blogroll who hasn't done this tag. Do it if you want to, not really necessary.


*Got a feeling that I can't go back.

Ken

I'm a burden to everyone I know. I am a burden to myself.

I bring despair more than I bring happiness. I am a jinx. I give you people more to worry about than more to be happy about.

I know you agree with me, so don't tell me I'm wrong, because you know that I'm not.

I wish I could ease what you people go through, but instead, I always make things tougher, don't I?

I'm such a helpless fellow. =/



*If you need to fall apart, well I can mend your broken heart.

Ken

Looking back at my life, last year seems to be quite a weird and happening year.

Oh wells, just so you know, I'm reading my MSN chatlogs and conversation history with everyone. It's kinda funny, and very very interesting. Okay la, I don't wanna go all "my life is damn interesting" coz' my life is just normal, like everyone else's.

I'll see what I wanna post later. Hehe. Bye.



*Why do stars fall down from the sky, everytime you walk by?

Ken

I notice, that I seldom read blogs nowadays. Hmm, I don't know why.

I visit my own blog like once every 2days recently, and I'm pretty much lazy to do anything with it. I hardly stalk blogs anymore, and I hardly have time to actually do some actual blog reading, of course there are some exceptions la, hehe.

And now I realize I'm using a lot of "," and no "." .

Pfft, I've been able to sleep pretty well last night. Maybe watching Man Utd trash Villa 4-0 was worth the watch. =D

I wanna go out, I wanna watch movies, I wanna stone, I wanna go yc at night. =(

Everything seems to be right there in my face but I don't know what to do with it. Sighs.

The things I do for the people I regard as "friends" really makes me question myself sometimes, whether for all I've done, do I get anything back in return from them.

I mean how hard is it to attend your friend's birthday of whom you've known since primary school right. Even though we ain't that close now, but c'mon, it's just once in a while and it's his 18th birthday. Sighs, people these days really don't know how to value others.

The things I do and the sacrifices I make, sometimes just tells me I should stop doing them. But at the end of the day, I can't help myself from not doing so, and yet again, be taken for granted.

I hate me.



*Everything I do, I do it for you.

Ken

I'm having weird dreams again, it makes sleeping don't feel like sleeping.

I'm traumatized by the dreams as if they're gonna happen in reality, which is pretty scary and worrying.

I guess I think too much at times, and worry about too many things at a time. But I can't help myself sometimes into doing so, it just hits me and I can't seem to not think about it.

I think that I question myself and the people around me too much sometimes, as to thinking "What if?". =/

I slept for 8hours, but my droopy eyes tells you that I've probably slept for only 2. In fact, it felt that I wasn't sleeping at all, it felt that I was over-thinking again.

Whenever I'm not blogging, I feel that there's so much to be said, but when I'm here typing out stuff, nothing seems to enter my head.

Bye.



*Open the part of you that wants to hide away.

Ken

I'm a very lazy not hardworking student. I slept again when I reached home today. Sighs.

Oh well, procrastination can only come this far, I've got LAN assignment to hand in tomorrow and I haven't started a thing. Yesh, I rawk, I know. =P

I need some kind of bug that will infect me with a disease that'll make me a little bit more hardworking. Pfft.

Random pics stored in the computer :



This is why I can never do my work. =D



During Prefect's Dinner Night 07.



LTC 07, very very mix of emotions back then.



When I'm bored of just staring at this screen, I stare at the mirror! >=D



Rawr~!




*I don't wanna talk about it, coz' I'm in love with you.

Ken

I slept for 10hours yesterday, it was nice.

I almost did that today, but I couldn't.

It rains everyday, don't you notice? Why?

Why is everything bad happening to everyone lately? Sighs, everyone seems to be unhappy and it's sad to see that.

I feel unhappy coz' they're unhappy.

Where's my rainbow? =(



*And the reason is you.

Ken

I can drive again! Seems like I'm unaffected by the accident, but oh well, the past is the past I guess.

These few days seemed to move by slow, as in very slow. Oh well, time is something which I hadn't got I guess.

I don't know what I'm saying, lol.

I'm guessing...



*Everything you do, makes me wanna go...

Ken

I banged/scratched/collided/rammed into a car today.

Yesh, for a guy that speeds at 160 on Kesas, I banged a stationary car at 15.

Somehow I felt a sudden sadness that I couldn't comprehend myself into feeling. I wanted to cry, I don't know why.

Oh well, at least everything is settled now. Somehow I felt something which I didn't feel for a long time today. It was soothing in a way.

I guess I now have come to realize, that my whole world's a different place. It's never like before, and I have no idea on what it'll be like.

Assurance could really do me some comfort, but I guess I haven't found someone to give me that.

I need to eat. Bye.



*And it eats me from inside, she's not by my side.

Ken

Sometimes living in your own little world is a good thing.

Nobody really cares about you, and nobody actually notices you. It's interesting, coz' nobody knows what goes through your mind and what's going on about you.

Whereas on the other hand, you know about what's going on about anyone and everyone, everywhere. I like my little world, it keeps me away from everything, but at the same time I hate it, coz it stops everyone from coming in.

I need to open up more. Open more doors. Take chances. Oh well, the time is right when the time is right to do so I guess. I miss having company around in the middle of the night, especially when I need someone to talk to.



*It's hard to believe that I couldn't see, that you were always right beside me.

Ken

I miss having that someone around. After 3 and a half years of my last five having that someone, it feels very different not to.

Maybe I complain too much. Will there be another someone out there? I wonder.



*But you won't get to see the tears I cry behind these hazel eyes.

Ken

What if one day you wake up and you realize, there isn't that someone.

That someone who shuts your fears away, that someone who takes away all your pain.

That someone who lifts you up when you're down, that someone who checks up on you from time to time.

If you realize one day that there isn't that someone, what will you do?

You realize, there isn't that someone to put a smile on your face every morning. There isn't that someone to save you when you think all your sorrow has drowned you.

There isn't that someone to hug you, and kiss you before telling you that everything will be alright no matter what happens. There isn't someone to be there with you whenever you need a shoulder to cry on.

Realization is harsh, but reality is even harsher I guess.

All these years, there was always someone, I'd guess now, no one is my someone.

I can't be too selfish into asking for anything, for I have had more than what many has never had. Sighs.

Sometimes having that someone and then losing that someone, is pretty much a lot more hurtful than never having that someone around at all.

One day, it feels like you're on top of the world. Come night fall, you realize it all meant nothing when that someone isn't there anymore.

And if you realize, everything else pretty much don't mean anything as well. But then again, that's when you think back, and I guess let fate decide what's your next move.

Who knows, maybe there is another someone out there that could give you what that someone you once held so dearly could not.

Life moves on I guess, and that someone, pretty much becomes your someone, until he/she steps away from your front door.



*Somehow here is gone.

Ken

I had fish and chips today.

What's so special about that?

Try imagining with every bite you eat, you taste wine! Yes, like those grape flavoured wine! Cool eh?

That's what I felt. And then I went a lil' high. Pfft.

I want more. Hehe. =D



*Can't fight the moonlight.

Ken

I've gotten back my poetic touch! Lalala.

Anyways, I'm yet again, sad to say, still sick. Pfft. But oh well, it'll eventually go away soon enough, or at least I hope it does.

My mum lost my SPM results slip. Ish. And I just woke up, so I really don't know much of what is going on.

And yeah, Lynnett, "Boy Meets Girl" is here. I actually didn't did a poem with the title, but it's somehow related, so I guess it'll do, meh.

Hmm, and here's what I wrote during English lessons today.

Time to take medicine and prepare for late night yum cha session. Toodles. (:



*I'll always remember, it was late afternoon.

Ken

I'm still sick. I have to go college tomorrow. I lack rest, I lack sleep, I lack awareness.

Sighs. I guess it's time to settle into life as to where I am now. Everything has changed since 5years back.

So much has happened in 5years. The first year was rather weird, coz' I was in the top3 in the school. Hard to believe eh?

Hmm, then the next 3years were definitely the best 3years of my life. I guess most of you know why. Thank you, for everything.

Then last year was rather up and down, like a roller coaster. All was bad, then all was good, then I guess it's best when you're stuck in the middle.

Oh well, holiday's over now. Assignments !

And ck, the Justin emoticon rawks ! HAHAHAHA.



*I'm going home, to a place where I belong.

Ken

I found this quote rather funny, "If you have five dollars, and Chuck Norris has five dollars, Chuck Norris has more money than you". =D

I'm still sick, and I have an MC for tomorrow. Hoho, meaning I can skip college with a valid reason!

I'm hungry. Bye.



*It's nice to know we had it all, thanks for watching as I fall and letting me know we were done.

Ken

I am free. (:



*When I think of you, I don't know what to do.

Ken

Tagged by Shu Fen.

5 things found in my bag.
- A pack of cards.
- Papers.
- Books.
- Calculators.
- My student ID.

5 things found in my wallet.
- Money.
- IC.
- Driving license.
- Weird name cards.
- Coins? Wth.

5 favourite things in my room.
- My bed !
- Soft toy cats <3
- My one cent collection.
- Football~ lalala
- PS 1 ! (CTR ftw =D )

5 things I always wanted to do.
- Go on a one year holiday trip to Europe.
- Visit the Stone Hedge and stone there, wtf.
- Own a Ferrari.
- Graduate without studying. (:
- Find someone who truly understands me to be by my side.

List out 5 top presents you wish for.
- To NOT be fat.
- Lappie. =D
- A house puppy.
- Extinction of M?
- To love and to be loved.

The person who tagged you is Lee Shu Fen~

Your impressions of her :
- Stalker.
- Stalker.
- Stalker.
- Lol.
- Okay, she's nice, and knows lots of *coughs* stuffs *coughs* that you think she doesn't know. =P

Most memorable things he/she has give/done for you:
- Tell the class where my house is. Lol.

If she becomes your lover, you will:
- Stalk her back! Haha. >=D

If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
- Neh, I don't make enemies. =)

And lastly I'll be tagging...
- Anyone who hasn't done this before.




*I'm letting go of all I've held on to.

Ken

Just a short update while I'm still around for tonight.

Anyways, I'm really sick today. Couldn't even move out of my bed (and Mao's bed, lol) till I was forced to.

Having fever, flu and sore throat at the moment. Weird how you can actually have all three at the same time eh?

I cough. I sneeze. I laze on the bed whilst wrapping myself with my comforter (without any baby lizard, haha =P ).

I can only look at the ceiling coz I'm having a headache and I actually typed my MSN password wrongly twice in a row 5mins ago.

And yeah, I was locked out of my own house last night. Went out at 12.30am, came back at 5am only to realize I forgot to take the house key with me. So now my mum gave me a brand new gate remote and house key. Weee.

Okay, I really don't know what I'm typing now. It's time to go and slain the Maggi Mee monster now. Byes. (:



*Purest of pain.

Ken

I stare myself in the mirror. I reflect on my life, and how it's taken a 360degree turn from last year, from 4years back.

It's weird how things can change so fast, and how people can change when the least you expect them too.

Everyone's drifting apart, some still stay, but some leave the circle. Oh well, I guess not everything is meant to last forever.

"If butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away?"

Everyone is different now, me, you, him, her, them. We're all different. We've all changed. Have we not?

Maybe it's time for a change. To leave everything behind and to start over, to look at things from a different perspective.

And maybe, just maybe, this change could be the biggest difference in life. (:



*Higher than mountain, deeper than sea.

Ken

"Where to pay parking ticket ar?"

"There."

"Oh, I thought need to use machine?"

"No need wan la, eh... *looks at the counter then turns around and walks to the machine*"


What was at the counter?

Lolz. Who knew people can be so racist these days.



*You don't even know the meaning of the words I'm sorry.

Ken

Wonder when Malaysia will have something like this. Enjoy. (:







*In the arms of an angel.

Ken

A phone call from the least expected place and the least expected person changed what seemed to be a boring, gloomy day.

I wish now was back then, and back then was now.

It's sweet to know you still care after all this while, but then, I guess what happened, happened for a reason as everything does happen for a reason. =)

If I could turn back time, I wouldn't want it to end, never, because I could have never felt happier.

I miss my Amby Wamby badly. <3



*But it never really seemed like you wanna try.

Ken

College life is much interesting. Very heavy picture post. If you don't feel like seeing, scroll to your top right and click the X button, thanks. No captions. Bah.


























































*Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air.