The Way You Make Me Feel

Ken

To all of you, it may seem that I've changed.

That I'm becoming more and more of a jerk.

Well, if you know me well enough then you'll know who I am now, but then since none of you do, then I AM A JERK TO YOU.

I don't give no damn no more, coz' I've got so much up in my mind that I wake up every one hour during my sleep.

I've got LAN assignment due Friday, Chemistry due Monday, ESL draft due Friday, Specialist Maths test on Tuesday.

That's just to add to the never ending list of worries and thoughts, and assumptions that are up there in my mind. I know what are my priorities, and if it means that I'm being a jerk, so be it.

Coz' I'm definitely not wanting to let these doors pass me by without opening them, nor do I want to waste 19k or a year just by flunking my papers.

If you know me well enough, I don't study. I don't read books. I don't take down notes.

BUT I do know what I'm doing. For if I don't, you'll probably see me retaking SPM by now. I mean who waits till 2days before SPM and only actually starts reading.

As I said, I know my priorities, sometimes, I just don't tell them to people, I don't show what I want, but in truth, I just wish all of you knew.

And yes, I LIKE TO THINK. That's why when you all think that I've got better things to do, I don't. I do things that are therapeutic, and that'll keep my mind relaxed, coz' if I don't, I'd prolly die due to using up all my brain cells now.

I stone, that's a known fact, but I find it therapeutic looking at the simple things in life, wondering about life's simplicities. If you think that is wrong, then by all means, again, call me a jerk for stoning.

It's sad, coz' being the jerk that I am, I'm at fault. I don't mind that, coz' if that's what you people think, then I can't possibly change that.

If I am that much of a jerk, then please, TELL IT STRAIGHT TO MY FACE. Pfft.



*But in the end, it doesn't even matter.